dont try dis at home

written on february 5, 2009
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2 possibilities
feb 5 5:05 a.m.


i've found out sumting really interesting after my trip 2 alexandria wit most of my housemates n few others~

well, again...another particular thing about me i've come to notice...

i dun blend wit public @ crowds easily...lol, dis is my 'assumption' only ok...mayb bcoz i dun like useless talks...

but i end up feelin LONELY...pretty sad ryte?

at first i dun u'stnd y, n i hate being left aside not knowin wut were others talkin about, but i came into a solution...

b prepared 4 2 possibilities...

get it?

e.g.

u r in a crowd of havoc peoples

if u prepare urself wit d'fact dat people'll ignore u even tho u dun like it, u wont feel so bad about urself ryte?...prepare means, bring sum stuffs dat kills ur boredom like novels or games or even music...

plus dis wont make u look so lame...LOL

and, it works wif other personal feeling's problems too...

another e.g.

u were telling one of ur besfren ur biggest problem

if u expected ur fren to not b interested in ur problems b4 telling her/him, so u r prepared...dis'll avoid urself from hating ur fren too much or thinkin she's not so into u

der is always 2 possibilities...n make urself think positive

rmmbr to live ur day wit smiles~....:D

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a totally lame theory....

i've practically done this after the incident (stupid but worth it!) and end up in a state of absolute depressed!

living in a life where u always expect the consequences is so boring honestly...
u fail to take chances...
no surprises in your life...
and most obviously you became a very boring person...
you tend to be lifeless!

i realized when it's a bit too late...just 3 days before my microbiology written exam where i broke down and decided to just let fate take care of my life...luckily my housemates were there supporting me

so, now i am back to a life of full surprises...
(but still can't avoid being eat up by emotional disturbances..."perempuan!")