wriggling-garbage-worms.. a lesson

December 9, 2012

a few days back, i was washing the sink in our kitchen, i noticed the little trash can by the sink is crawled with...

worms!

yup, tiny white wriggling rice-like worms! (even writing this send goosebumps up my neck, ugh!)

hehe, no judgement please...we're in final exams time-zone!

gambar cacing yg bersih...sbb yg kotor is just too...huuu, geli!!!

so, since it's too yucky for me to touch them, i kept pouring water onto those worms to send them down the sink...*after i got rid of the thrash of course...:D

but as i watch these worms, wriggling helplessly against the water flows for their lives...it struck me! how helpless they are in my hands! i killed them all off with just a couple of shoves of water

though still, they are Allah's creatures.. living lives.. which to me, their existence seems of no importance.. as far as the amount of knowledge i have (sadly) except that these worms annoy me (flourishing up once i forgot to empty the garbage!)

so, maybe.. this is how 'we' look like to the Jews.. they kill people in Gaza mercilessly, because to them, we meant nothing.. except annoyance

- a lesson from these smelly helpless tiny wriggling worms of Allah's creation. No! they are not weak! their presence has significance!

-pondering.. 

-written on April 9th, 13

things vs hearts

October 20th, 2012

i was feeling particularly sad about something i lost a few days back...and maybe the sadness is shown pretty clear on my face...(hehe, i wouldn't be a good actress it seems)

this morning at breakfast, Ayah said to me,

"you know, miseries in this world is mostly because you can't get what you want. whether you are poor or you're rich. that thing that you can't have makes you depress

if what you want is material like money, job, clothes, house...etc, that's not a big problem! you can strive for it, work for it n find a way to achieve it...and end your misery

but if what you want is someone's heart, you cannot force it from him, because if you do...you'll feel that 'the heart' is not yours...

woops, a broken heart! haha

and a lot of people falls into depression over this, especially if you're rich...rich people can pay a lot of money just to win someone's heart...sacrifice their heritage...which they may not get

they forgot...that hearts can only be given willingly by the one you want it from, you can try to ask for it nicely...but never demand! or force it!

still, : )
don't worry, there is someone else that controls the heart...
"يا مقلّب القلوب" (Owh You who can turn hearts) and He also owns everything else... in fact, the entire universe!

so, what ever you want and you think can make you happy, ask from Him and pray for it, Allah will definitely not let you down"

hee...ayah made me smile, even without knowing what am sad about...this is why i love breakfast with my dad...

a great reminder to me that i like to share with everyone...sometimes, we forgot from whom we get everything...and sometimes we asked from the wrong person...*lagi-lagi nak pilihanraya nieh..hehe

typing with "bella's lullaby" as the background music...very authentic! ^_^
-written on April 9th, 13

in which path are we?

among the stuffs i do to take my mind off the tension of reading medical books (that never seems to finish) is meeting ustaz Mahmoud :)

ustaz mahmoud gave me a metaphor yesterday about human's incentives to reach their goal

there is this mother with 3 children around school age
randomly i name them ahmad, muhammad and mahmoud

ahmad loves to go to school...everyday he would wake up early, perform solat, breakfast and go to school without being asked by his mother

muhammad doesn't like to go to school, but as mother promised him 10 EGP everyday if he goes so he went willingly

but mahmoud on the other hand would not go to school even if mother gives him 10EGP everyday, so instead she said she'll beat him if he didn't go to school. therefore mahmoud went because he's afraid of the punishment

finally, all three of them succeed in their studies

and that is also how we all are...

we were created to worship Allah

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم

وَ مَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنسَ إِلاَّ لِيَعْبُدُونِ

surah azZariyat: 56

thus, some of us, worship Allah, do good in our daily lives and avoid bad things because we love Allah as our God <3

some of us worship Allah because Allah promised us Jannah...and Jannah is not a small deal right?

but there are some of us who worship Allah, do good things and avoid bad ones because we are afraid of Jahannam if we don't do so...

on either path,
finally we will reach our ultimate aim that is to worship Allah
hopefully we are categorize as in one of these 3 groups of people...

and same goes to any goals we wanna achieve in our lives...
we will finally reach our aim
as long as we do not choose to be in neither of three

just a tiny thought to ponder on...
dah, lynn...g study!!
hee

مخطوط makhtoot

today Ustaz Mahmoud started our class with his journey looking for a مَخْطُوط

"ya liyana, do you know what is a 'makhtoot'?"

i shook my head

"makhtoot is a hand written book, written by ulama' from ages ago. it comes from the word 'khat'...i've been looking for this makhtoot, written in the 900 hijriah, and one page cost me LE5...and this one is of 13 pages"

wow!

"nowadays liyana, people have lost the ability to appreciate these valuable old written knowledge...let me tell you...a story...about a makhtoot in Egypt...entitled 'kitab dawud' of a hundred pieces of papers, written by a jew who was a renowned doctor at the times of Andalus...he became a muslim and wrote this makhtoot in arabic

well,
in the year around 1920, there was this British who came to Egypt, he had studied arabic very well, and he visited the 'maktabatul makhtootot' (library of old hand written books) everyday.

the 'Amin' (the person in charged of the well beings of these old valuable handwritten books a.k.a librarian) noticed that he would sit and read these handwritten books.

the Amin said...one day however, the British took out a book that was hidden among the never-read-section...a very old book, that the Amin believed to have only been read by the writer if ever. the Brittish sat reading it intensely and once he finished, he brought the book to the Amin and said:

'i'd like to have this book, i'll give you THREE Thousand dollars for it!'
'huh?...i don't know, no books should be taken out from this library' said the Amin
'hmm, how about FOUR Thousand dollars?'

now the Amin realized that this book must've been very valuable...so he said
'i cannot allow that'
'FIVE Thousands dollars?' the British kept negotiating

'ermm....well, give me one week to have this book out for you' the Amin finally took the bait

so the Amin said he paid a person to copy the 200 pages of that hand written book in one week by hand and gave the original copy to the British.

unfortunately, one sad day, the Amin's house caught fire, and the whole copy that he had of that book was burnt but only small bit of a single paper left...=(

he was very sad but he kept telling the story of a book (of which he know not of it's title) that was taken by the British until his death.

now...around two to three years ago, a Muslim student from Egypt studying in Great Britain read books in one of the libraries and found a book entitled 'kitab dawud' in English. he fortunately have heard about the existence of this book from his Muslim Scholars, but to his knowledge, the book was originally written in Arabic...not English...

and...he had heard the story of the Amin who talked about a book taken by a British...things click!

so this student went searching for the writer of the book...the writer has passed away...huu
he asked around for the writers children instead...and finally was lead to the writer's grandson who lives in his grandfather's house

'does your grandfather keep his writing materials?' the student asked
'hurm, we still keep some of his possession in the basement below, you can go look around down there, we are about to throw them all out anyway' the grandson replied

so this student went searching among the writer's possession...and walla!
he found a very old shabby hand written Arabic book entitled 'kitab dawud'...he sat there for hours reading that book...a book of medical ailments and treatment, stories of the jews and their holy book 'taurah'...

finally, he climbed up the attic and asked the grandson if he could buy that book from him
'take it, we don't want it'

and so...that precious handwritten book finally return back to Egypt =)"

"did you see liyana how people who knows the value of these knowledge 'see' this old books? the British might have made double or triple the price he paid the Amin. but how his grandson didn't even notice the fortune inside that old book that it was return for free to Egypt"

wow!

am speechless!
as usual...a story i heard in Arabic that i'd love to share with the world...i try my best to translate it from my understanding...and Ustaz Mahmoud is very patient to stop at every point i was confused and made sure as much as he can i understand every single word...

pardon me if i made any mistakes...Ustaz Mahmoud taught me to always say this:

every good and benefits comes from Allah
and any mistakes or bad words come from myself the imperfect slave =)

ramadhan day 29

we spent last night in Jami' Arrahman Arrahim ^_^

i'd like to share how wonderful it is in that huge unbelievably crowded mosque...
i prayed beside the gates of the Mosque open air...
and it was not a wonder why...

because, the Imam who led the solat was such a wonderful person
an easy going, warm, joyful and friendly...i assume so as i only hear his voice

just before we started Isya' prayer he addressed his ma'mums...

'before we start our prayers today, i'd like to tell you something,
here in this mosque...we are crowded, packed but we tolerate our fellow muslims just to pray together, we read the du'a together and 'ameen' the dua together, we cried together...but sadly, right after we exit this mosque i see some of our brothers and sister get into fights in the streets...for a simple matter...

you have just tolerated one another in this mosque, why can't we tolerate one another throughout the day?...say sorry, say thankyou...give pardons...i really hope we look into this matter dear fellow muslims. if we are here just to show off, it is better for us to pray in our houses...we don't want to ruin our prayers with 'riak' (boasting) my dear brothers and sisters...

now, i'd like to ask our brothers in the mosque to take a step forward, to give some space for your friends to enter this mosque, and for those who are outside the mosque on the streets, try your best to be behind the 'Imam' as much as you can...and squeeze in...let your fellow brothers and sister in...it's okay for us to be this crowded. zahmah fi rahmah insyaAllah (crowded in blessing insyaAllah)

pardon me as i translated his speech which i kept only in mind...i dun take notes as i wasn't prepare for such a wonderful tazkirah before isya' prayers...his words are of course much more wonderful!

being addressed like that before solat was a first time to me...
usually in other mosques, i only hear the Imam's voice saying "AllahuAkbar" and the crowded buzz around me suddenly become quiet and we are already praying...

after 4 raka'ahs of taraweeh, instead of giving a tazkirah (which i never focused in before n other mosques...mainly because it needs effort in my side to translate it, so i read the quran instead usually)

the Imam talks about the sufferings of our fellow muslims in Syria, Myanmar and Palestine...and he said there's an Islamic Relief volunteers are moving around boxes for donations...

and he said
'we are living in this very blessed and peaceful country, we eat properly, we sleep soundly, we work and earn money everyday...we do not have citizens dying from hunger at least...Egypt is blessed by Allah, we are even recorded in this holy book alQuran...since the times of nabi Yussuf alaihissalam, we become the provider for other countries in the difficult times...

(and he read surah Yussuf verse 46 - 49)

and in this blessed mosque, we are gathered among rich and wealthy people...rich and wealthy and also blessed to be here in this mosques with us...do lend some of Allah's blessings to you, so that Allah will increase it more...muslims are one, let's help our fellow muslims'

and then the Imam made an auction for most of his belongings...
he auctioned 2 of his best Tafseer and got LE10 000 each if am not mistaken, his staff, his robe, his prayer mat...someone even mentioned, why don't you auction yourself ya Imam?
'Wallahi if i am worthy to be auction for i'd give myself, but what good would i be for you?i can't cook, i do not clean houses...i just read books...hehehe'
such an easy going person...made me feel like i know him already ;)

and those thousands were given to the Islamic Relief mission

being among those rich people...it triggers me,
the best position we could be in is in the position to provide
but being given that much wealth in itself is a test..

on our way home after subuh ^_^

may Allah put us all in the best position to be his slaves...ameen
in the end, it's Allah's blessings we are looking for ^_^

ramadhan day 25: jami' bilal

this is my first time ever to meet so many...i mean 'a lot!' of "healthy" Egyptian adult and children
hehe

well, being in the hospital most of the time, i was never exposed to such crowds
but last night, i went to Jami' Bilal...about 30-45 mins drive from my place...
there were so so many people coming for taraweeh...
even the park beside the Jami' was full

my first time to be part of this huge crowd
and it gives us an extra lift of spirit to perform Ibadah
coz, the Jami' is not just full during taraweeh...
when we woke up for tahajjud, the park is still in use!
Subhanallah! Egyptians really live up the last ten days of Ramadhan... ^_^

after Tahajjud we had iftor in the park and solat subh there

i never knew that going to masjid was this much fun!...^_^

my focus is actually the beautiful crescent!if u can see it...
canteknye bulan....ad bintang2 di langit...hee :)

ramadhan day 24: let go

the moment i realized the essence of what i've gone through...
i feel blessed that Allah is always with me in this wonderful life
^_^
Alhamdulillah

hehe, the incident that happen last night wasn't that dramatic as my intro...but a 'tear-trickling-experience' for me

ieqa and i wanted to take a taxi to Jami' Rawwas again for taraweeh...
but just for taraweeh because i promised ustazah Maha i'd be there

we came down during azan for isya'
but, no worries...Jami' Rawwas starts prayer a bit late...
so we stood in front of 'Musa' trying to stop a taxi

a taxi came
'assalamualaykum, Gami' Rawwas lausamah'
'Rawwas hunak?'
'Aaa' (nodding)
'tsk' (with the index finger)

hmm...second taxi came...
another 'tsk' (with the index finger)

the third...the fourth....the fifth....

ieqa said 'maybe the traffic is bad there...guess, Jami' Ibrahim? (which can be reached on foot)

a bit dissapointed...because i've promised...but if i kept waiting for a taxi, i might miss both isya' prayers with the imam in Jami' Rawwas and Jami' Ibrahim...

resignedly...we started our steps to Jami' Ibrahim
but along the way, we still tried to stop any empty taxi

sixth...nope
seventh...'masyi!'

huh!.................i stopped in my track. stunned.
we were just about another 25 steps to Jami' Ibrahim...hee
Alhamdulillah....^_^

'see, sometimes...we just need to let go! Allah will take care of it for you...' ieqa said...

friends,
Allah never wants you to be the best
but He wants you to try your best
and He'll definitely take care of the rest

Subhanallah...:')

ramadhan day 23: i'tikaf

what does "i'tikaf" means?

it means, staying in a mosque to worship Allah
excluding all your worldly stuffs

first time i did it! :D
last night...
in Jami' Rawwas...
with panna, ieqa, adah, hana, aimi, and mufid ^_^
it was like... a 'stay-over' with friends
in a mosque
with lots of Tahajjud Prayers and Quran reading...

i was told,
anything we do in the mosque will be rewarded as good deed
this include;
sleeping, sitting, standing, rubbing your nose...whatever possible thing you do
just, remember to put your intention for i'tikaf
such an easy way to get rewards right?

was fun for a first time,
but this morn i woke up, it was zuhr already...erk!
hehe : )

تقبل الله منا ومنكم

ramadhan day 21

huh!
am finally in the last ten days of Ramadhan...isk,
time flew so fast....

guess what?
we missed sahoor!!!
huuu...
am dead worried...
waking up at the sound of azan subh
i looked longingly at my water bottle by my table...
owh how will i survive this long day.....................(dramaticnyerrr..LOL)

no more heavy foods before sleep!!!
(wasn't that heavy, i took arruz billaban...heavy?)

it's cold rice in milk desert...nyumnyum

but, miraculously :D
my day went as normally as it could've been...
i did wake up to doc Hussein's revision class
afternoon discussion with panna didn't end up with sleep...hehe
(which was rare infact!!)
and i even cooked for iftar

barakah fi Ramadhan ^_^

for this last 10 days of Ramadhan,
may all our sins be forgiven by Allah
i pray for all of u and me :)

ramadhan day 19: سَبْعُ المَثَانِي

have you heard about سَبْعُ المَثَانِي?

try finding this word here...i love this Qasidah...
(Panna said there are their future sons in there -for her, Shae n Nadiah...mine x de ea? hehe)


in Surah alHijr, verse 87

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم

وَلَقَدْ ءَاتَيْنَىكَ سَبْعًا مِنَ الْمَثَانِى وَالقُرْءَانَ الْعَظِيمَ

And indeed, We have bestowed upon you seven of alMathani (seven repeatedly recited Verses), and the Grand Quran.

صدق الله العظيم

what are these seven Verses that we repeatedly cite throughout our day?
that is
non other than
the first Surah in Al Quran

surah alFatihah

ustaz Mahmoud told me that
surah al Fatihah is equal to the whole AlQuran,
surah al Zalzalah is equal to half of AlQuran
and surah al Ikhlas is equal to a third of the AlQuran

and he also told me this 'touching' fact

back in his days,
prophet Musa alaihissalam read in the Taurah
that Allah has granted a nation with 'sab'ul mathani'
seven holy Verses that is repeatedly cited
so prophet Musa alaihissalam asked Allah to grant him and his people those Verses too
but Allah denied his request

and
prophet Daud alaihissalam
who is known to have the most beautiful voice
and praised Allah day and night
was only granted part of the 'sab'ul mathani'
which is azZabur
also known as مزمير داود (flute of Dawud)

Christians and Jews searched high and low for this holy Verses

but it was not given to them
it was infact
sent down
specially for
the Ummah of prophet Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم
'us'

how touching it is
the fact that we are not level with Allah's messengers
and even,
with all the bad things we've done
or we've never done any right things in our life
but because we are the Ummah of Prophet Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم
Allah permits our lips to cite this سبع المثاني
which He denied prophet Musa a.s
and only give a part of it to prophet Dawud a.s

سبحان الله والحمد لله و لا إله إلا الله والله أكبر

thus,
in every raka'ah of our prayers,
remember to think about
this beautiful blessing Allah has bestowed on us
a blessing that really doesn't match our worships to Him

thank you ustaz Mahmoud for this beautiful sharing ^_^

*when a thing become significant in your life, you tend to share it with the most dearest to your heart ^_^

ramadhan day 17

today is the day we celebrate nuzul Quran! ^_^

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرّجيم

شَهْرُ رَمَضَانَ الَّذِى أُنزِلَ فِيهِ الْقُرْءِانُ

 هُدًى لِّلنَّاسِ

وَبَيِّنَتٍ مِّنَ الْهُدَى وَالفُرْقَانِ

surah alBaqarah: 185

i had the pleasure of attending an iftor event held by PERUBATAN

with the theme: AlQuran; love letter from Allah

and Sheikh Rohimuddin was invited to give the Tafseer of surah AlQadar

i never thought of attending his classes any more since last july...but, Allah knows best

"happie ^_^"

let me share some gems that triggers my inner mind there

ليلة القدر is a hidden night amongst the night of Ramadhan

(3) لَيْلَةُ الْقَدْرِ خَيْرٌ مِنْ أَلْفِ شَهْرٍ

The night of AlQadr is better than a thousand months

which means, worshipping Allah in just this one night is better than a thousand months of worshipping

WOW! that's like 83 years or so...

even if we survived to live for more than 83 years and we did nothing but worshipping Allah, there is no guarantee all our 'ibadahs will be accepted

so, how can we get this heap of rewards?

Sheikh said,

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

(1) إِنَّآ أَنزَلْنَهُ فِى لَيْلَةِ الْقَدْرِ

Verily, We have sent it (this Quran) down in the night of AlQadr (decree)

ليلة القدر here is also interpreted as 'a "great" "perfect" person'

(i'll work in simplifying how this comes out insyaAllah one day...hee) 

and that is non other than our beloved Prophet Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم

no one walking on earth is perfect except for our حبيب الله

the Prophet's Companions, when asked to describe him (s.a.w) said

"خلقه القرءان": his character is like the Quran itself

"هو القرءان يمشى على الأرض": he is like a walking Quran

this tells us that,

to want ليلة القدر, 

we need to act as that perfect person

this night is not given freely

it is not found by mere signs like the a prostrating tree or a calm cloudy day

(these are the examples of signs i was told since kindergarten..)

people that understand this verse, 

worked really hard to worship Allah for years, 

just to be granted this one special night

Sheikh also mentioned, 

there's this someone (unfortunately i didn't catch his name) said

"for 20 years i suffered to hold my tongue from saying bad things

to get hold of ليلة القدر

and after that one night, 

doing good deeds is not a suffering for me anymore"

let's work our way, 

to perfect our characters

and be specially selected by Allah 

for this special night

yosh!!

All the best fighting for it! ;)

*and i would not have heard this wonderful Tafseer

if this birthday girl has not requested us to celebrate her birthday here

^_^

happy birthday Norfarhana Sam!

thanx for giving us a 'present' on your birthday

and thank you Allah for granting me such wonderful friends

ramadhan day 12

on my way back from Inoue n Najib's house last night
i took a long route home,
jz because i wanna feel the air of Ramadhan here...

it's just so different from my hometown back in Malaysia...
Ramadhan is not really celebrated that well, instead
most of our focus are directed to celebrate Eidul Fitri

the most touching scene i experienced here is
almost everyone brings along a Quran with them
and seeing people reading it anywhere,
on the bench, while waiting for a train, in the bus...:D

and...
people are unexceptionally nice to everyone
fights n quarrels are a bit less than usual...hehe

plus, people decorate their houses with beautiful lights and 'fannuus'
feels like Eid already, except that they started from the first day of Ramadhan!
wanna share these lovely pics

this reminds me,
when i was small...
ayah and mama sometimes brought us for a car ride at night just to see the lights decorated along the streets...
in KL or at the round-a-bout in Shah Alam...hee
"kaklong! adeeq!...tengok tengok lampu!"
miss those carefree moments ^_^

ramadhan day 11: i feel like a grandma!

of course not me...am 16, 18 max...LOL
(jz kidding)

well, today i had the pleasure of bringing Dr. Heba to Inoue n Najib's house...
they held an iftar for Gen6 to celebrate Nouman's 7th day!!!

of my almost 6 years in Cairo,
i've never tried this: driving!

plus, family n friends who knows me in Malaysia knew how bad i am in remembering directions...hehehe

but it turns out, Dr Heba wanted to drive from our faculty to their house!
(nope, it wasn't me who drive of course...haha)

i prayed hard that i wouldn't get us both lost in the heart of Abou Rish..hehe
Alhamdulillah, we didn't

but...there was another unique experience i went through

apart from being afraid i might get us lost,
the path was not easy...it took us almost 40 minutes just to go through the narrow packed alleys and find a place to park

in every corner we turn,
some thing needed to be moved out of the way
a quarrel needed to be halted
even a little girl help giving way for us...so cute!

'have you been here doctor?' i asked
'never, this is my first time here. how did you manage to find a house here?'
'our seniors used to live here'
'you remember the way?'
'yup, there are many malaysian houses here' and i point out some of my fellow friend's house on our way to Inoe n Najib's house

Dr Heba decided to park a bit far from their house, as that place was a straight path to Medan Sayeeda Zainab
and we were on foot after that.

and finally, Dr Heba said
'i feel like a Grandma!'

ramadhan day 9

after looking back all those years i've spent here in egypt
i find it a miracle i survived ^_^
and towards reaching the end, i question myself again...if i really wanna become a doctor?
why did i choose this path of life before?
am i strong enough?
will i pass???...

insyaAllah kheir...never underestimate the power of du'a
and Allah has eased me from the beginning of my breath, i'll do fine (self motivating..hee)

well...we (few of gen6 that are left) had an iftar with Prof Dr Heba Mustofa today
she is the malaysian student coordinator,
but this year is different...
apart from just being our coordinator, she willingly volunteered to be our private tutor for clinical internal medicine. every thursday from 2-4 (tho i usually reach class at 2.30...erk)
thus, we became ever so close ^_^

thanx to our friend Eckm, for arranging the time and venue
we had it here!

indian dish pulak (i feel like i have multinationality...hehehe)

so, before iftar...Dr Heba hand down some pretty great advices to become a doctor

she said, (from what i remembered...and it's edited...sorry, no pen n pencil on that day, simply my vague memory)

being a doctor doesn't just mean treating our patients physics,
they have a psychology part too
in the ward rounds, remember to allocate enough time for each patient when you go from bed to bed
all day long the patient bears staying in the hospital just to wait for the doctor's visit
do not treat them like a pile of work you need to finish
being a doctor, you may not feel this
but once you are in the patient's shoe, you'll appreciate the time spent on you

i remembered one day my grandma was hospitalized due to a fractured femur
all her children and grandchildren waited at the hospital for the doctor's visit
and when the doctor came, he said 'you're fine, she's fine...you can go home!'
and that is all we wanted to hear...that she's fine...it relieves us

each and every patient you'll meet, you'll learn something from them
each patient, so treat them well

choose carefully which branch you wanna go into
either internal medicine or surgery
if you are not into blood and mess and cutting people, take internal medicine
it needs great courage to cut people open and skills too to perform the surgeries

i remembered my rounds in the surgical department and the first week was in the emergency department
i got home and i vomit!
we had this patient coming with and amputated index
and my friend, put the index finger in the patient's hand and said 'go to the operating theater'
and they had and argument
'how could you give me my finger like that and ask me to go to the theater? you don't have any heart!'
it really is bad to put part of a person's body in his hand and ask him to go to the operating theater just like that, but we were busy at that time and have lots of other patients.
so, choose well

study well for your final exams,
once you finish studying, you'd realize that every topic is all connected
human is one
there is not just cardiology, or neurology, or gastroenterology...every part is connected
and there is no theoretical or clinical...everything is related
study them well
and while you study, you will realize 'why havn't i read this before?' hehe
and while you're taking your MD exam you'll say 'why havn't i studied this well while i was an undergraduate'
and when you'll become a professor, you'd say the same.

the first three years of your career will be tough
i remembered my residency
we had to work almost 24 hours
i sometimes didn't sleep for 2 days
and once in Ramadhan, a patient came arrested exactly at azan al Maghreb
and i had to make mouth to mouth breathing (at that time the hospital were not really well equipped like now)
after that, i couldn't eat, and patients came in back to back...until fajr and i continued fasting without eating
when i look back, i can't imagine i had passed those 3 years and i don't think i wanna do that again
but alhamdulillah, it's passed now...and you'll face it, kheir insyaAllah

i have more to tell you but this is so sudden
thank you for organizing this iftar
____________________________________________________________

: )

those are what my memory still remember
though we definitely chat more than that
hope it benefits those who weren't there and am sure you'd have wanna come
(hehehe...specifically to nadiah :p)

jangan jealous...hihihi

hmmmm...
the journey is proclaimed by many to be a difficult one
though those who lives to share the journey succeed awesomely
well,

إِنَّمَا الأَعْمَالُ بِالنِّيَّات

وَإِنَّمَا لِكُلِّ امْرِىءٍ مَا نَوَى

i invite anyone to share in if i've missed any valuable advice that you remembered ^_^

ramadhan day 7

today, our egyptian colleagues organized an iftar event
with the class of Dr Hussein Khairy

the Malaysian were requested to bring along some deserts
Malaysian desert! uh hmmm...n we brought -

kek gula hangus
bubur jagung
bengkang carrot
agar agar
coklat kek
kueh sagu

the iftar was held in a park behind our Kasr el Ainy's hospital
all these while i've been looking out through department 25 every morning wondering where is the route to this lovely park...and finally we reach there welcomed by the beautiful sunset

on top of attending his classes every morning since the start of term, i never fail to feel awed by the presence of Dr Hussein
though as "the Dean" he never made us feel intimidated

and these are the member of the class ^_^

the iftar ended by Abdullah's joke of impersonating every figure he knew in Egypt
from all the Professors of Kasr el Ainy to Mubarak, Anuar Sadat...#hahaha#
and the best of all was of course of Dr Hussien's....LOL

it was really funny, he covered almost all of the Dr's favourite remarks and sentences in class
and even the way Dr Hussein walks n pick up his phone...and especially how he boost up everybody's confidence
'u know it, i know u know it!'
hehehe
'it's fairly straight forward!'
even Dr Hussein laughs along with us
hahaha

this is really one of the new culture i've experienced
makes me feel Egyptians are really easygoing and fun to be with ^_^

thank you so much everyone for the sweet memory :')

ramadhan day 6

today is.......
Egyptian cuisine day!!!

hehe, well...actually, i phoned my landlord if i could come and teach her how to make curry puff
as she told me she really love it...
but it turned out on this lovely wednesday, i was taught more than half a dozen of egyptian cuisine

let's go through by sequence of us -ieqa, madihah, sam, natrah n me- cooking from 4 to 6 p.m (ustazah Maha must've started much much more earlier than that...)

#1: kofta in tomato sauce

this is minced meat with rice and vege, blended and shaped into sausages
then fried and put into the tomato sauce (grated tomatoes in saute onions with a bit of salt n pepper)

#2: ghulash lahma

ghulash is this paper like thingy we use to make popia's skin (a malaysian delight...hehe)
but this paper is large...the one ustazah Maha has was almost the size of an A4 paper
4-5 layers of ghulash is laid in a tray or what'd u call that rectangle silverware...mince meat, sliced tomatoes, and olives is then spread on top of that layer
then another 4-5 layers of ghulash covers this topping...
it is then cut and blended milk and egg is poured
and baked in oven...super duper yummieee (i simply love it!!)

#3: makaronah basyamil

i've tried dis one...made it for mama last summer
i came late that i managed jz to see it coming out of the oven looking delicious...hehe

#4: rice (hehe...coz it wasnt our usual way of cooking it)

d'you notice those brown thin stuff in the rice?
well...that's like vermicelli but very very short...it is called 'sha'riyah' in egypt...means 'hair'
that sha'riyah is first saute in butter until brown...like real brown
then, washed rice and water is put in
cooked until rice is cooked ^_^
was there salt in it madihah? <- she was the one responsible for the rice...LOL

#5: grilled chicken

uuhhhh...this is extremely delicious
am not so sure how the first step was done...the chicken was cooked with some sauce and bay leaves (tomato sauce i guess)
and then grilled
ummphh!

#6: Egyptian lady fingers (coz it's super short) and boiled eggplant

finally the veggies,
1. lady fingers in tomato sauce (blended tomatoes in saute onions)
2. boiled eggplant with its dippings -
crushed chillies, black pepper, garlics and soaked in vinegar and some salt

#7: desert (sorrie no pictures...)

i felt like my stomach extends down from my pelvis up to my throat by the time ustazah Maha wanted to serve desert
it was something like trifle...or it is a trifle...biscuits with custard and jelly on top
nyumnyumnyummmm

burp!
Alhamdulillah~~

nope, there weren't just the five of us to finish all those up
kinah kamil, kinah rasad, kak yana also came and a portion was given to ustaz moataz and their 2 sons
and ustazah Maha! ^_^
thank you ustazah for the great lesson! 

ramadhan day 5

i noticed that every time i held a baby or beside a child, my heart swells massively
(is that the right expression?...well, that's what i feel anyway...like all the love is suddenly gorged in...whoaa, hehe)

today, in this blessed month of ramadhan,
a new baby of gen6 is born!
baby nu'man...^_^

baby nu'man first day in this world ^_^

congratulations to our wonderful friends,
najib and inoue
may nu'man grows up to be a good boy, great son and one of Allah's favourite slaves

أَللَّهُمَّ فَقِّهُ فَي الدَّينِ وَ عَلِّمْهُ تَاْوِيلَ

this is a dua, my landlord teaches me as she was teaching me al Quran
a dua our beloved Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم prayed for ibnu Abbas رضي الله عنه
at that time, ibnu Abbas was still very small...

one day, years after our beloved Prophet (s.a.w) passed away,
Umar al Khattab chaired a discussion of أسباب نزل القرءان
(am not so sure how to translate this literally...it's a branch of knowledge that discusses the reasons of why a certain surah or ayah was sent down in the time of the Prophet s.a.w) or so that is how i understood it

well, in that discussion, Umar al Kattab had invited ibnu Abbas to join in
and at that time, he was only 15 years old...
so, many of the members of that discussion (who were wise and old) argued the presence of ibnu Abbas

anyway, as they were discussing surah an Nasr,

in the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

1. When there comes the Help of Allah, and the conquest

2.  And you see that the people enters Allah's religion in crowds

3. So glorify the Praises of your Lord, and ask His Forgiveness. Verily He is the one Who accepts repentance and Who forgives.

sadaqallahu al Azim

most of the members said that this surah is sent down to tell good news, about 'fathul makkah'
that Islam will one day conquer Makkah and many people will embrace Islam.
and was proven to be true

when ibnu Abbas oppinion was asked, he said...
Allah wants to tell us that the mission of our beloved Prophet s.a.w is almost complete
and he (s.a.w) will leave us soon.......

isk isk...

upon hearing ibnu Abbas' words, no one doubts his presence

as the meaning of the dua our beloved Prophet s.a.w prayed for him was

"ya Allah, give him the understanding of our religion (Islam) and teach him the knowledge of interpretation"

*this story is fully based on my al Quran class' notes
i am not a student of Deen...do correct me if there are any mistakes :)

ramadhan day 2

not about me today

about mama n ayah...
mama n ayah is on a worktrip to turkey...and i get regular updates of their visit...^_^

i'll share a couple of them,
mama n ayah went to see a Masjid with 20 domes
an exemplary Sultan was described to me about this Masjid...
(unfortunately ayah did not remember the name of the Masjid nor the name of the Sultan)

anyhow, as the Sultan fought for that land, he vowed that he'll build 20 Masajid if he won.
Alhamdulillah he won, but unfortunately he didn't have enough budget to build 20 Masajid...so he built one with 20 domes instead :)

and ayah said he was a very tolerant Sultan, upon buying the land to build that Masjid, one of them belongs to a non muslim...that guy didn't wanna sell his land at first until finally he agreed with one condition:

"the Sultan cannot make a masjid on his land."

hmm...

the sultan agreed, and instead used thst land for a place to make wudhuk =)

ayah said his high tolerance has made 95% of the people in that land embraced islam...wow!


another story that i'd personally wanna go and feel is about Sultan Muhammad al Fateh and his soldiers...a Sultan that has never missed tahajjud prayers since he hit puberty ayah told me

he was also fluent in 7 languages, became a ruler at the age of 19...and many more values a muslim should look up to (and i believe most of us heard his story since we were young ryte)...and the most of all, he was mentioned personally by our beloved Prophet sallallahu alahi wasalam-

قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم

لتُفتحَنَّ القَسْطَنطِينِية

فَلَنِعْمَ الْأَمِيرُ أَمِيرُهَا

وَلَنِعْمَ الجَيْش ذَلِكَ الجَيْش

'constantinopal will fall into the hands of muslim arm

its king is the Best of kings

military forces are the best'

hadith, narrated by Imam Ahmad :')

in turkey, ayah and mama had to fast 18 hrs and they managed even to roam around...huhu, instead i stayed at home, slept or just read books and felt worn out for only 16 hrs of fasting...duh! be fit lynne!

these stories reminds me of the glory of Islam...
hope this Ramadhan will boost up our spirit
to become a better slave and better humans
n last beyond this holy month =)

*x pegi pon rase cam pegi...hee
miss mama n ayah :')

ramadhan day 1

alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah

i've been granted a chance to live another ramadhan...my 24th :D

again...no electricity during sahur...(but this time electricity was down in the whole town! no electrician can be called upon at 3 a.m. anyway...hee)
i learnt my lesson, instead of complaining, i befriended the floor right after subuh and fanned myself into dreams...bliss ^_^

today, i spent my day at home...trying my best to fit in all my books into the cupboard (it's been lying all over my room for a while...ops!)
alhamdulillah, i managed! ^_^

vintage...hehe
really, i hope it last long...hee


also today i tried to fill in my ramadhan calender...i need to plan my days or i might waste it on unimportant stuffs
am really easily distracted...huuu

thanx to sam for sharing doc's Tamer plan of studying...i really need that!!!
but only 5 days for cardio??? n 6 for neuro???..hmmmm, we'll see...

hmmm....

but, 

do not underestimate your ability and the barakah of the month of Ramadhan...i can i can i can!!!! yeah~

*if u fail to plan, u'r planning to fail

please pray am focused...haha

about my fasting....errr
even though the weather is slightly cooler than it used to be (only 36 degrees today) i found myself worn out towards the end of the 16 - 17 hours of fasting...
rubbing my epigastric region pleading it to be pitiful for just another half an hour, i wondered how those being captive in the israeli prison had gone on for up to 90 days of hunger strike...T_T

indeed our Lord only put us in a position we are able to go through...bless them

well, studying for me today was not great...need to try more tomorrow
all in all, i pray for a better day tomorrow...and for you too
ameeen :)

the day before ramadhan 2012

i woke up late from a 'nap' after subuh
grabbed anything that didn't need ironing n rushed to my favourite class of the year

Dr Hussein Khairy's 

mayb because i went to it every morning...
they say it takes 21 days for a routine to be liked and 66 days to be your habit permenantly if you didn't brake the chain...(from productive ramadhan seminar)
but, the major reason i love his classes is, i'd get a dose of motivation to be a doctor every morning ^_^

after that we had an egyptian breakfast! inside baghal...
i dunno if my combination of choice is what egyptian use to have...i took فُلّ (egyptian beans) because my dad loves it, i took مُسَعَّقَة (eggplant) because we love it and شَكشُكَة (scrambled egg) because i know what it is...hee

my major obstacle today was
NO ELECTRICITY!!!
i was complaining the whole time...hottt!!!! huuu...
in this weather without electricity was TOUGH for me...though luckily i can still eat n drink
i fanned my self till maghrib...(finally my landlord found an electrician that managed to deal with the problem, Alhamdulillah! ^_^)

suddenly it occurred to me, how would those syrian people live in outcast, not just without electricity, but also without food n a roof for shade...those palestinians, apart from being hungry n hot are also at the brink of death any moment...instead of complaining, zikr n taking wudhuk would have been better...isk...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

رَبَّنَا لاَ تُؤَاخِذْنَآ إِن نَّسِينَآ أَوْ اَخْطَأْنَا

رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَآ إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا

رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تَحَمِّلْنَا مَا لاَ طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِه

وَعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْلَنَا وَرْحَمْنَآ

أَنتَ مَوْلَىنَا فَنصُرْنَا عَلَى القَوْمِ الكَىفِرِينَ

surah al Baqarah: last verse

hope this Ramadhan will be better than the last...ameen ^_^

i got RM 86 000 everyday!

did you remember those early days when internet started to be popular?
that was around me at 9-10 yrs old...(what? only 13 yrs ago?...hehe, internet seems like our life by now ryte?)

anyway, i had my first email account at hotmail.com and i subscribed to a weekly jokes from a website...
apart from those weekly jokes, i get emails from my mom and dad too...and that's it.
(now i have complete amnesia to both my first email address n its password...opss)

that was the time where i got this one email my mom gave me...

it said something like this

"if mama gives you RM 86 000 everyday, and you can spend it however you want n if you did not finish it, i'll take the balance back but the nex day you will get another RM 86 000"

with a big picture of a pouch overflowed with gold

hurm...i read it......... n forgot about it~...hehe

one night though
on our way for a dinner somewhere
(uuuhhhh, i love those moments when ayah or mama said, 'jom! kite makan luar hari nie!'...i'll be beeming inside out :D)
we had a conversation sonding like this-

mama asked, "did kaklong and adeeq got my email about that RM 86 000?"
"yup!" i said
"did you understand that email?"
"why? are you really gonna give us RM 86 000 everyday?" hehe - surprised n grinning
"owh, hmm...what would you do with that much of money?" ayah asked...

hmmmm....
"a house, a car, clothes..." me ticking of all i wanted...
"you'll only spend it for you?" ayah questioned...
"hmmm...i'll give some for the needy, for the masjid...for the school...."
"nothing for mama and ayah?" ayah argue more
"but you gave me that money, u must have more!"
"ouch! that's so sad...we give them a lot of money and they forgot about us...nope, i'll be giving all i have to both of you" ayah said
"huh? ok ok...i'll give u a present everyday...but are u really gonna give me that RM 86 000?" sparkling shiny hopeful eyes....

"nah, probably not...you dun even remember us..."
"laa....i told you i'll give u a present everyday..." 
"hehe, no...that was just an analogy...Allah gives you 86 000 seconds everyday...you should use them well, if not...you'll loose them just like that though, you'll get the same amount next day...but that'll be a great waste kn?...sort out your 'seconds' wisely....and remember to have some share for mama, ayah n people around you too..."
"owh! huuu..." disappointed me

i almost believed mama n ayah will give me RM 86 000 back then...hehe

TIME IS GOLD or so they say....

and LIFE IS SHORT

"SO MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT!"

we are not granted with the abundance of time like the people in the past to prostrate to our Lord and please Him...
and we are not given the strength like they had to be persistent and sprightful in performing 'ibadah for Him
and we live in an age where people sin a lot
it seem impossible for us to match those that lived in the past to fight for Jannah...:(

but!

we are blessed with a night that every prayer is rewarded as praying for a thousand years
a month that every deed is multiplied
a day that any benevolence is blessed...
time of the day that any prayer and wish will be granted

:)

why not make use of these extra 'easy' income!
(reminding myself mostly and anyone who reads this)

may we enter Ramadhan with the best preparation
i apologize if i have hurt anyone or wrong you in anyway
if i have any debt that i havnt paid...do please ask it back from me...and i'll be glad to give any personal apologies if i have to

Ramadhan Kareem to mama, ayah, siblings, family and all my friends whether we are super close or just know each other by passing ^_^

*do pray for our brothers n sisters in syria, gaza and myanmar...and any muslim that is being mistreated

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

رَبَّنَا اغْفِرْلَنَا وَلِإِخْوَانِنَا الَّذِينَ سَبَقُونَا بِالْإِيمَان

 وَلاَ تَجْعَلْ فِي قُلُوبِنَا غِلاً لِلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوا

 رَبَّنَآ إِنَّكَ رَءُوفُ رَحِيمِ

al Hasyr: 10

DEATH!

death is really a good reminder

that we do not have much time to waste

(lynn! move on n study!!! 

stop facebookin stop drawin stop readin non textbook stuff!!!!!!...haha, 

need to push myself now)

anyway...

last wednesday, one of my Dr's cancelled our afternoon class

and after some discussion with a couple of my classmates, 

i was left with another hour to 2 o'clock's lecture

so i decided to spend my time in the masjid behind the tropical's department (or is it beside?)

(dang! should've join 28A's unit...i forgot Dr. Moataz is on wednesday...huuu~)

but...there was a surprise for me in that masjid

just after i finished solat dzuhr,

i get to see down in the 'guys' floor that a body is being brought into the masjid

people gathered and lined up

and i heard the announcement for a funeral prayer.

my first encounter of my whole 6 years!!

well, not suppose to b a surprise

since every time i drop by the masjid for solat dzuhr, i was always in a hurry...

sometimes i just crash into a nearby musolla - to the lecture hall buildings (either in microbs or lecture hall B)

i got up n prayed along...

it occurred to me...

death does not always come by with a pleasant knock on your door and patiently waiting for you to open it or a ring that he'll come by tomorrow or nex week or another half an hour

death comes when it is destined to come...

a secret date

hence,

we always need to b prepared...

of course for ourselves... 

but also, for people around us too

do we know how to handle a dead?

do we know how to bathe a dead?

do we know how to pray for a dead?

(thnx for ur sharing yesterday kk!)

*how to perform a funeral prayer (click)

(it's in malay language)

salam 27th rejab...

(sorry x de kaitan dgn isra' mikraj....since this was my encounter during the week)

Allahumma balighna ramadhan ^^

*do pray for our brothers n sisters in palestine, syria, myanmar n those being mistreated

-this world is getting nastier by the minute

-humanity is underrated, instead pretension is apprised :'(