new year's eve

on what level did u set your bar?...(asking to myself)

am not a girl...not yet a women...then???

hehe...a teenager la...
but am out of my teens oredi...

hurm...
up coming new year of the sun...n i've jz celebrated new yr of the moon...
time for reconstructing myself...

countless of things happened, n my mind is drowning thinkin them through...
but, there is compassion sumwhere in there...

not knowing is bad
realizing is good
but acting on wut i've realized is better...
can i???

frustrated if i can't...n i took refuge in the quote : nobody is perfect in this world
should i???

uhuh~
jz got dis out from my community medicine book
"A picture is more valuable than a thousand words"

some explanation...( i promise it won't reach a thousand words~)

try to give every single body their right! i.e, including yours!
(told u it didnt reach a thousand words...)

but...

i shy away from holding it...but no matter how i turn...they still stand in my face!
-my babble after a long sleepy n hungry but interesting n exciting day!

# happy bday to umi nita n aunty niza...sweet 42 tho u guys look twenties...
"when u feel 20 u look 20...it's all from within" - umi nita's tip

#must check out my trip "inside" hussein in facebook (photo album: d'hidden city inside hussein) - xpheline@hotmail.com

#post ust nazrul is very interesting!...n a very HAPPY NEW YEAR

exams~

jz gone thru a quiz...luckily it was in a group...i need to be serious!!!!...huhu...thnx guys...honestly u helped me out soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!

anyway...exams...is it a big deal?
i noticed today...the feeling of being unprepared for an exam...takut!!!...
real big deal!...

but that was jz a minor quiz...n i freaked out real bad...
comparing it to the day after...can i hold up the feeling of being scared that great?...
this hit me as i recited the following verses...

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

7. And He it it Who has created the heavens and the earth in six Days and His Throne was on the water, that He might try you, which of you is the best in deeds. But if you were to say to them: "You shall indeed be raised up after death," those who disbelieve would sure to say, "This is nothing but obvious magic."

8. And if We delay the tourment for them till a determined term, they are sure to say, "What keeps it back?" Verily, on the day it reaches them nothing will turn it away from them, and they will be surrounded by (or fall in) that at which they used to mock!

9. And if We give man a taste of Mercy from Us, and then withdraw it from him, verily! he is despairing, ungrateful!

10. But if We let him taste good (favour) after evil (poverty and harm) has touched him, he is sure to say: "Ills have departed from me." Surely, he is exultant, and boastful (ungrateful to Allah).

11.  Except those who show patience and do righteous good deeds: those, theirs will be forgiveness and a great reward (Paradise)

surah Hud verse 7-11

"ya Allah...please shove away the ungrateful feeling from us! and please help us to be patient!"

i feel very far whenever am anxious and worried...i need to feel calm...
but having problems doesn't mean am anxious...an easy life doesn't mean am calm...
life~

p/s: happy bday to shae shaari n saidatul akma!

feeling lucky~

last 2 days the vc of university malaya dato' dr. ghauth jasmon gave a speech about their goals...

he talked all about the requirements to be the top university in the world, importance of recognition and the drawback of being average...honestly an interesting explanation...it did push out my narrow mind wider~

but one of his point nudged me...he said we (me n my fellow collegues) are lucky...we got scholarship, proper learning environment, promising future...compared to our parents era n most of other kids my age are facing nowadays without the proper education...

phew! i do feel lucky~..

specifically lucky dat i got into medicine...i need to tribute an individual for dis...who i think played a major role in my being here inspite of his little effort~

about 5 years ago...at the start of my fith year in secondary school...it never occured to me dat i can b in a place like cairo university...bcoz...my grades weren't good enough...i do score A's in certain subjects...but not in "addmath" (additional math)...never even hit 60%...i jz can't get the hang of it...untill my SPM trials...dat was the corner stone!

my result was barely pass...this can never help me get thru even matriculation...n i didnt even consider medicine yet in short term...but a teacher came helping...cg. salleh...he noticed my weakness...but being a carefree student at dat time it didn't bother me dat much...plus, i was never interested in addmath...(and still...hehe)

cg. salleh is an addmath teacher, but in my school he holds the academic affair post (penolong kanan akademik)...meaning he doesnt teach much, being busy with school administration...but!...despite all that...he found tymes to corner me...almost every evening after my trial results was out he would come and search for me at the clss building and teach me in his office...only me!...

real damn special care...i was wondering why he bothered to spend his evenings away from home...just for me...(perasannye...hehe) but, the way he tought me the subject got me interested...he showed me how to use my strength...help me understand the basics...and all the calculating stuff...and it worked...

we had another trial paper about a month before the big exams and walla!...i scored full marks for addmath paper 1...first tyme i got higher than afiq (never got his addmath marks below 97% if am not mistaken)...but i flunk paper 2 a bit so my full mark is way lower than afiq...hehe...(i still feel glad about that...one sweet memory)...and this somehow made me realize dat i could get A1 for my SPM...

alhamdulillah i did...n honestly, i can't thank cg. salleh enough for helping me out in this becoz...if he didn't, i dun think i'd be able to enroll in medicine which i dearly love so much!...that was really luck!...

and i thanx to my other teachers in integomb too...we need to get almost all A's for medicine ryte?...n i would have never got it without their help...i do feel lucky...really, really lucky~

(seb bek x yah study maths n sejarah anymor...hehe)

each cloud has its silver lining

شكوت الى وكيع سوء حفظي

فأرشدني الى ترك المعاصي

و قال ان العلم نور

و ََنور الله لا يهداه عاصي

an arabic poem from my arabic teacher jz now...sorry i dun have the patience to put in the pronunciation marks (it kills me for not being fluent in typing...hehe)...so i'll spell it for you then~

shakautu ila wakii'in suua hifzii

fa 'arshidani ila tarkil ma'aasi

wa qola innal ilmi nuurun

wa nuurullahi la yuhdahu 'aasi

a poem by imam syafie...it means,

i bemoaned (complained) to waki' (imam syafie's teacher) that my memory is bad

so he showed (told) me to leave 'al-ma'siah' (doing bad things)

and he said 'knowledge is light'

and Allah will not give His light to the wrong-doers

this poem touches me very deeply...today

i knew about it before...but never thought it was in a poem-form...

anyway, i guess u understand its meaning ryte?

n truly every cloud definitely has its silver lining!

does this one count as silver-lined clouds?

life is something new for individual discovery...

syafakumullah to my frens who are still ill...may you guys b in ur best health for tomorrow~

# thnx to nicky for lending me her lappy to type in the arabic words~
# there's a song by talib al-habib regarding this poem...thnx to jackster~

anatomy~

so far after stumbling in about 10 core subjects in medicine...anatomy is by far still my favourite subject!

jz feel like putting a picture makes this look attractive...hee

well, by dat doesn't actually mean i still remember all of the details...haha...
but, anatomy gives me some sort of confirmation dat am doing the right thing...in a way...2 incident y...

one-

in one of the first lecture i had in anatomy...an anatomy lecturer told us something i never forgot...
he asked, did you know how much joints are there in your body?...
ermmm...i never knew ofcourse b4 dat...n i googled it up...the answer is not absolute...
but dat dr. said, the answer equals to the no. of 'tasbih, tahmid n takbir' u do everyday after every prayer...which equals to 495...
coincidently, you are grateful for the joint's Allah provide you~

second-

during my second year here...in embryology class...we were discussing the development of gonads...and the dr. explained to us how testis is formed...he said...
"about 1400 years ago, even b4 x-ray is invented, Allah has described the development of testis in surah atTariq"

In the Name of Allah. the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

5. so let man see from where he is created!

6. He is created from a water gushing forth,

7. proceeding from between the backbone and the ribs.

subhanallah...it is precisely the position where testis is developed before it descend...the position of our kidneys now...the exact words in my embryology text book page 153

'Testis develop high up in the posterior abdominal wall but has to descend to lie in the scrotum.'

i jz feel glad to get to know that am dealing with god's creation...of course He knew better...

anyway, the trigger that made me remember this today was our boring nutritional lecture jz now...(hehe)
dr umaimah asked...how many percentage of an adult skin is needed to be exposed to sun to get him or herself enough vitamin D?
many attempted to answer...i guessed 30%...haha...wrong obviously...
the correct answer is 12%-17%...which 'accidently' equals the skin of your face and hands...remarkable ryte!...

hehe...my cousin~...miss her soooooooo much!!!

dr. umaimah said...it's amazing how Allah protects us...u'll never know!...

[sharing while my mind refuse to read the lecture jz now...huhu...:D]

happy birthday mimi

this is a story about a gurl

who lives dis life in a very diffrent way from u n me...

evry morning she opens her huge eyes...ready to discover a new adventure dis world holds for her

never once crossed her minds

to crash with others who have jz s weird life s she has

one lucky day when she refused to step inside the buildings of "integomb"

she met us

the other diffrent life runner in this world...

(me sarah n dayah i mean...n her other bestfrens too)

and so we drew...

as many memories 1 and a half year can hold

to make our friendship last

untill dis moment

n i hope...

till the day after!

happy birthday siti nur hakmi!

our picture about 4 yrs ago...i look so young...haha

mimi...

i miss u so much n all the crap we've done before...hehe

n i jz can't ignore ur bday!...

really...

i hope u have a wonderful life whether here or in the hereafter life...

n get urself a guy gurl - i bet dayah second dis!

am glad i get to see u last september but i hate it dat i didnt prepare anything for u...thnx for the bracelet which was ur hand bag strap...but i like it!

(the poem-like thing up der r jz babbles...honestly, mimi is a cheerful...life bringin kind of gurl!)

unequivocal happiness

i am intrigued...

by the reason of my existance...

whether i am allowed or not to be happy...

but i guess...in whatever situation...it's our own choice to decide our emotional outcome...(the brain is definitely one magnificent 'thing')

as last night i came back from the smart circle programme...(we discussed about 'tomorrow's muslimah'...safwan's book ryte?)...it gave me my confirmation...i knew it all along actually about this 'happy' issue...only, it's jz great to have it in white and black...

the one that caught my attention...one of the last pages in that book...a reply i think i shud remember all my life...

this is happiness in the eyes of Ummu Kalthum binti Ali, the wife of Umar r.a...

though this is from my eyes~

there was once she caused Umar to be upset and angry about their household issue, and Umar said

"i will cause u grave!"

and she replied

"u won't be able to do that...my happiness is in the hands of my faith, and my faith is in my heart and no one have the power to authorise my heart except my God!"

(sorry i translated it, it was actually in malay...any misstranslation do correct it)

so...only Allah can decide whether u can b happy or not...and by putting ur faith totally in Him, u'll always be happy and calm without sorrow~...

i luv being happy!

salam aidil adha!!!

arafah day's fab!...lousy dat i woke up kinda late...but the iftor was tremendous!
my landlord invited us over n another few of ustz maha's student!!!...unfortunately i didn't bring my camera...nicky brought it tho...i'll upload our pic nex~...the tremendous thing was the food!...i never tasted egyptian food better than just now!...i mean, i never tot i'd like em dis much!

anyway...stop about the food...(million credits to ustz maha tho)

i have a couple of stories i gain from "bengkel korban"

story one from ust hairulnizam...
his sheikh, sheikh yusri who is also a surgeon had an experience about a women's abdominal pain...
this women presented herself with unexplained abdominal pain and the surgeon's decided to just operate on her...but sheikh yusri here managed to solve this problem without surgery...or even as simple as painkiller...he, apparently dug out the main core of this problem...

this women told him that she used to perform slaughtering every eid...but since a couple of years ago she stopped...so sheikh yusri figured out that it might help if she could ask her son to perform one slaughtering for her...miraculously, she got well!...without even a tap...hehe, well...the lesson here is...

when we are used to doing sumthing good and suddenly stop it, Allah'll test us to remind us that we've stooped doing something great and how amazing his reward would be if we continued!....

story two...from kak pipah...

there was two leaves hanging on a branch...one day, a worm came across them...the worm asked the first leaf...:may i eat you please...i am very hungry!"..."ofcourse not!" the first leaf answered..."huhu...", the worm moved to the second leaf..."may i eat you please...i am very hungry!"...pitying the worm, the leaf agreed...and so it was nibbled a bit...

as time pass by, the leaves turns brown and finally both of them fell in autumn!...

the moral of this story here...the first leaf even uphelding its pristine looks by prohibiting the worm eating it up still falls down and the second leaf, at least get to contribute~...

get it?...salam aidil adha!

someone's watching over me

Found myself today

Oh I found myself and ran away

Something pulled me back

The voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is you're not here to say

What you always used to say

But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light

And it's shining on my destiny

Shining all the time

And I wont be afraid

To follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday is gone

And right now I belong

To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say

and it doesn't matter how long it takes

Believe in yourself and you'll fly high

And it only matters how true you are

Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even when it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That someone's watching over

Someone's watching over

Someone's watching over me

hillary duff's song...sometimes i really need motivations...though i can get it from other sources...but this one really touches my heart...thnx to those yg tegor n bagi semangat!!!

"people often say that motivation doesn't last. well, neither does "bathing"...that's why we recommend it everyday!"

since 'we' - yg berkenaan- live in four season countries...evryday bath isn't that necessary is it?...so am changing it to "drinking"

a glass of water~

wut's the first thing that crosses your mind when you wake up in the morning?...:D

well, for me...it is accustomed to me that evry morning, the minute we regain our consciousness we say alhamdulillah...(there is a du'a but these reciting stuff is usually very difficult for me to get it out unless am in that situation right now...huhu...but, it means alhamdulillah)...

but today, i woke up with thirst scorching my throat...n very weirdly, last night i've prepared a mug of plain water beside my bed...urm...did i know i was gonna wake up thirsty?...no idea...but, by drinking that mug of water the moment i was alert struck something in my head...

this was a routine to me before...
everymorning i would drink a glass of plain...y?...because it was indicated...somebody, centuries ago told me about this...and i tried it n found out it helps me get through my days easier...especially last year!!! (3rd year in kasr el-ainy medical faculty is undeniably **********)...

what's the benefit of drinking a glass of water the minute you woke up?
plenty i guess...read it out yourself~
http://hubpages.com/hub/Bravo-to-the-American-Version-of-The-Office
http://www.diamond-energy-water.com/interesting-fact-about-water.html
http://www.wangcyber.com/forum/sembang-umum/17240-khasiat-minum-air-mineral-kesihatan-menjadi-tiptop.html
and there are more...just google it up...:D

holidays are actually a disease to me~...huhu, i forgot my routine habit here because of it...and i've acquired a new destructive one = watching movies...urgh!!!...

advising myself for a better future~...

(if i'm not mistaken, there's one of our prophet's (s.a.w) hadith about drinking a glass of water in the morning right?...am not sure, but whoever knows it...i kindly ask if you could share it wif me~...)

can't figure a proper title...just...read~

i jz had my smart circle yesterday...well, i actually meant to write down the requirements of life my dad told me two summer's ago...coincidently, it correlates with what a friend of mine said about in that SC...

we were told to write down our unsolved 'huge' problem in life (which were several for me) and she told us some very motivational n inspiring thoughts...

if we have a problem...don't blame it on your surrounding, change yourself!...(bangau oh bangau~)...well, one of my problem is, i'm really not good in socializing~...well, i do talk with people...but when the crowd grew or when people are not talking about something i am interested in...i tend to distant myself...really it is up to my own will if i want to butt in or not...so, i am so very sorry if i appear quiet or distant from you guys...

therefore, this is my solution...blogging-

is this really socializing?...well, it is in my book anyway...sometimes i do have some opinions to share...but am really not good in explaining it out loud...writing seems much more preferable to me...oopss,this is too much about me already and we're almost deviating from my early intention...

so,the connection btwn 'problem solving' and my dad's 'life's requirements' is...one of the life's requirement is socializing-

it's shorten into : SPIES...this is really famous and well known right?

but i wanna share it anyway, because...without one of these, your life will feel a bit unbalanced....before people use to quote on “intelligent quotation”…your IQ!...when I came enter high school, we debated a lot between IQ n EQ (emotion quotion)…which is more important?...but actually, you need all…

Spiritual

Physical

Intelligent

Emotion

Social

Every soul living in this world needs an aim to continue life, and you need a calm mind to get yourself a proper goal…spiritually…with this it means believing in God existence and succumb to it. Alhamdulillah, I assume each muslim in this world knows what their aim in life is right? preparing for hereafter…I really hope i am preparing myself~

to run for your goal you need physical strength to be able to move…meaning stay healthy!... when I am sick, usually almost all my ‘day plans’ suddenly destroyed, postponed…I don’t fancy that, but acquiring sickness is a challenge so…

you need intelligence to be able to solve upcoming problems…don’t be dumb and let the illness eat you up!...seek a way to cure yourself!...not only for your illness problem, any other challenges and obstacles in this life…you need to work your brain to get through it!...being dumb just makes you vulnerable~

your emotion needs to be stable so that you can be proactive instead of reactive…there’s this story farhana told us in our SC about Stephen king’s covey's wife, Sandra n his son…

one day, he came home and his son came running~

“daddy…I am a hardworking person!”...uhuh?...so he asked his wife, what happened actually?...so, she told him the incindent…

she came home tired from work that day and found out the house was in a mess!...water spilled everywhere…urgh!!! (frustrating…I can imagine that)…but, she hold up her anger and ask her son softly…

“why did you do this?”…

her son said… “I was trying to help you mom…to wash the dishes!”…

“urm…so, why did it become like this?”…

“I can’t reach the sink, so I did it here instead…” proudly her son answered…

uhuh…so she replied “okey, next time you wanna help me, we can get you a stand so you can reach the sink, you are a hardworking boy!”…and her son felt contented…

well, the idea I wanna convey is, sandra here is being proactive…what would’ve happened if she reacts to the situation and scolded her son? (being reactive)...i bet, he’ll be hurt emotionally and assume that- helping your mom’ll just make her mad at you!...so… “as-Sobru min al-Iman”

and finally…you can never work alone~…living means socializing…even if you don’t have any relatives or friends ( I really doubt I can find anyone like this) you need people to help you living...socialize! for example…

you need a landlord to rent or buy a house,

you need sellers to buy your food n drinks,

you need doctors (ehem2…hehe) when you fall sick…

you need patients to work on if you are a doctor…

and so the list goes on…you just can’t live alone!...even in an unpopulated jungle, you still need the trees and animals and water~…

oh my god…this is long!...well, it compensated my brief pause of entries….hehe

anyway, hope you get the message here…I’m dedicating this to myself truly…and for everybody else too…

credit to my dad and panna

 

p/s: don't be a puppet! n i know this is boring...thnx for reading!

just know!

in one of my dinner....two summers ago...on my first visit home after two years staying in egypt, i had a chat with my dad...(well we usually chat in the dining room at night...n i really miss those moments...)

my dad told me about stages of learning...i can't exactly remember how our conversation end up in this topic but anyway...i think it's a very useful information as a student...(n we have to learn our whole life don't we?)

so, stages of learning starts as early as our infant years....but, academically speaking...i'll start with school...

#1...know

in primary school we are tought to recognize stuffs...from alphabets and numbers to planets and kingdoms...these are surface knowledge...we can get it from reading...basically, we learn the general knowledge...

#2...understand

as we proceed to the secondary school, we start to understand our subjects...do experiments, compare results, argue and ask ..."why"!...this is a very critical stage in learning, because if we misunderstood our knowledge...the steps after this may not continue or end up wrong...

#3...apply

to enter a university, we have to fill in the application form right?...y?...because at this level, we are learning how to apply our knowledge...hehe...and here we got our degree!...yeay!!!!this is usually where people commonly stops their learning process...after they have mastered their skills in applying whatever they've learned...they start work (even work requires us to fill up the application form) and live a happy life with their growing family~...

but!!!...

there are those who continues...we go into

#4...analyze and #5...synthesis

analyzing and synthesising...this usually apply to those who work in RnD section...which is, research and development...we study and analyze the old product for defect and improvement, and we synthesize a new product that is usually better...this step help human kind to develop and upgrade our civilization...we need to become master to achieve this level~

finally, to get to the final step, we need to be a specialist...

#6...evaluate

or also known as the "consultant"...to whom we refer if we have a problem and any confusion that needs confirmation...to be able to get to this stage, we need to study every single minute aspect till the recent findings regarding our field...and since knowledge expand as time passes by, a specialist needs to constantly update himself too...

so, at last...we can never stop learning...hehe

well, actually if am not mistaken, there were 7 stages...but after i crammed my memory...i can just rmmbr 6 of them...but never mind, i'll ask my dad again for this...but the main point i'd like to deliver here is,

to say we "know" about etc...etc... means we are just at the first level of that knowledge...

so, is it permissable for us to debate informations if we just knew?

and, at which level are we actually in the field we engage ourselves in?

these stages are just to give a rough idea of our studying process...we need parameters to achieve our goals ryte?...or not we might end up lost and satisfied being where we are~...

hope this clears our path infront of us a bit~...

thnx ayah!...u r my best motivator!!!

(i admit i only just "know" this...)...:p

my name?

hurm...is today haloween or was it yesterday?
which ever...

not that i bothered to celebrate it...
but actually...i've been waiting for the end of october to explain why i chose "xpheline" as a my "other" name...

some 6-7 years ago, there was this haloween movie which i have forgotten the title...a story of high school students competing in the best 'haunted house' competition...the story starts with the death of a guy, who became a ghost because of some unsolved mission. he helped a kid to win that haunted house competition and finally found out what his unsolved mission was...which is to turn out the culprit who stole an artifact in the town's museum...a carving of a cat named 'The Feline'...

this is where i found out that feline means cat...or the cat family (mayb a scientific name or in latin - to be sure as prof wiki...hehe)...n thus came out the word xpheline which i give the meaning..."i am not a cat"...

there u are...nothing beneficial in it...just some little information...

good answer!!!

it's really hard to give 'the right' answer when a question is given to you...especially if it is given suddenly and under pressure~...


but, giving a 'good' answer is a different thing...without really having the correct one, if we can organize our answer properly...it can come out as an acceptable one...--this of course need some practises and mind working apart from sheer luck...hehe...(it's pretty handy in exams)


watch this~

##the content of this entry is situated way near the end of this performance##

ok...frankly, i jz can't deny dat this performance is jz so cool!!!...though...time-wasting~

huhu...(what an intro jz now...)

but...since it's made me wasted my time...it wudnt hurt if i take some lesson out of it would it?...

just i think...beware of what you retort back to others...(kalau da x tau sngt, jgn tipu plak...) 

ijhiz nafsaka!...oppss silap..."jahhiz nafsaka"

precisely at the moment i felt useless n time wasting, a beautifully striking lesson hit straight on my nose...well, it wasn't like i dun have anything to revise or homework to be done...just, sometimes...i don't feel like it...so, this is what happened when i became bored~

lynne: is it true...u r always bz?
ammar ehsan: hahaha...


(nmpk sngt x de keje...sorry i disturbed u cat!...but it was worth it..:p)
asking him about his experience as an oversea stdnt...(joyful to hear it from an elaborative point of view...nicely done cat!)...but the best part dat made it worth it n i think it's nice to share it with evrybody...is the story about his super sr...

am not too sure about his history but here is his blog
n truly it is inspirational!...after reading wut he has gone through...
getting to know that he has hodgkin's lymphoma during his medical studies, he still did pass his final years n can jot down his experience in a blog while still continueing treatment~

suddenly i felt ashamed...
it's funny i still have time to wonder what i should be doing when actually piles of work are stacking itself before my eyes~...
can i face anything like dat?

hurm...
but i felt grateful that, eventhough i meant to chat around, God sent me a wonderful message...that i am not yet prepared...life is still long and still plenty of things to be done before that destiny...that awaits me...comes and fetch me...
hopefully i have done packing by then~

preparing~

in simple words i meant to deliver...ijhiz nafsaka! jahhiz nafsaka!
('prepare urself' in arabic - jz learnt that word this morning actually...hope the grammar is right...hehe)

22 oct 2009

correction:...jz asked my arabic teacher dis mornin...jahhaza the root word of prepare, when is used for an order is jahhiz...
there is no such word as 'ijhiz', but 'ijhaz' means 'attack urself'...LOL...
a splendid language...just a tiny mistake the meaning is out of the window~

eg: (my teacher gave this morning...)

wird ('wau-ro'-dal' the letter wau is pronunciated as 'wi') : habituation
ward (also 'wau-ro'-dal' but the letter wau is pronunciated as wa) : flower
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another funny and going-to-be-embarrasing incidence this morning...

my teacher asked for an english idiom...without thinkin much n with absolute confidence, i said...

"lady fingers...it means a person who is good with plants"...

my teacher argued..."why shud it be a lady, not a man???"...i said i dunno...but as i walk home i realized...it wasn't "lady fingers"...it was actually "green fingers"...hehe...got to correct myself in my nex clas...huhu...

toshuhai sharaku

slamat hari raya!!!

as today is PERUBATAN celebration of our eid mubarak~



and...am dedicating this post to an unknown japanese (to me...i apologize if you do know him...no offense k) because...he...being alived in the 18th century, managed to gain RM 2 million from an auction of his painting!!!

of course, he wouldn't even get to feel the money coming, but hey!...that's a very fat fortune~
and i believe, he didn't even thought his paintings back then can be auctioned this much!
so, this is the one auctioned in paris a coloured painting of a japanese actor arashi ryuzo (i translated from utusan dated 17 oct..hehe)

arashi ryuzo

well, to get that picture, i have to search...and got stuck up in a website called artcyclopedia...walla!...

i love drawing, but never get the chance to really learn it properly...though i practised them in my bz tyme...hehe...ok, simply...i have an absolutely 0% of knowledge on arts...(keen to know though)...but, i still can't keep in what bothers my mind here...

what is so pretty about that painting to be auctioned for RM 2 million???

well, in that website, there's this 'top 50 posters' of arts which is based on its cumulative sales on that website...and, #1 is....

the kiss

by gustav klimt...an austrian painter in the early 19th century (from wikipedia)...well, again...i fail to see the value of this painting~...

hurm...though am really into arts...(drawing n music)...but unable to see this as valuable as most of the people in this world do...i think i know why am destined to persue in pure scientific academical field~...

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

"Jihad (holy fighting in Allah's cause) is ordained for you (muslims) though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know."

surah alBaqarah verse 216

i know this verse is quite famous (since it was in one of the islamic love novels)...well...not only for marriage ok guys!....hehe

(it really is difficult living in my age right now where i get invited to weddings throughout the year~)

humanitarian preservation

the more i learn medicine...journeying towards an ability that can be applicable in humanitarian acts...i found out am loosing more of my sympathy...

my target does not cohere with my path...(in this situation)...is it permittable?

~after a session of circling around the forensic museum...i was discussing about babies in jars...goodness gracious!...

the price of knowledge...

my memory~

i've just had a lecture...quite interesting...remarkable i suppose~
about burns...


(it's hot to go!!!...H-O-T-T-O-G-O...it's hot to go..aummm...)
one of the cheers mase hari sukan~:D

but i realized how much i've forgotten my 1st and 2nd years lesson...

talking about layers of skin...of scalp...even the anatomy of head...

pondering again into the holy book al-Quran...i found this...

In the Name of Allah, the Most Benificient, the Most Merciful

"And never say of anything, I shall do such and such thing tomorrow."

"Except (with the saying), 'If Allah will!' And remember your Lord when you forget and say: 'It may be that my lord guides me unto a nearer way of truth than this.'"

surah alKahfi verse 23 and 24...

may we all get guidance from Allah...ameen...

plus, another thing about burns...i don't think i'd like to imagine this verse

In the Name of Allah, the Most Benificient, the Most Merciful.

"Surely! Those who disbelieved in Our Ayat (proofs, eveidence, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) We shall burn them in Fire. As often as their skins are roasted through, We shall change them for other skins that they may taste the punishment. Truly, Allah is Ever Most Powerful, All-Wise."

surah anNisaa verse 56

no wonder pain receptors are most sensitive on skin...even pain in viscera are referred to skin~

ouch!!!

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feelings are the most beautiful and delicate substance ever created on earth...

i never give a tot about feelings as i see them as trivial matter, before...but now i understand what the feeling of missing somebody really about...

luckily i studied here, or i may not meet the meaning of 'miss' at all...

gosh am becoming gurlish~

fishing~

seems like am attracted to animals as a motivator...they do help a lot though, to make us understand~

but i was afflicted by this comic here...

because funny enough...

i was just planning on posting the 3rd advise from doctor fauziah which is, teach the man how to fish...don't give him the fish! (in my simplified note)...skiving for images that can describe the meaning of this 'quote'...i was quite startled to find this comic here came into the result...well, top three of the line drawings means almost something like this one...

as far as i am concerned, this 'quote' is quite famous...surely they should've put the obvious meaning...but, as i explored a little more, i found out that i am not up-to-date here...because, i discovered this from http://www.amatecon.com/fish

The Original

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you have fed him for a lifetime”—Author unknown

The Improvements

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you will not have to listen to his incessant whining about how hungry he is.”—Author unknown

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you can sell him fishing equipment.”—Author unknown

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to use the Net and he won't bother you for weeks.”—Author unknown

“Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. Unless he doesn't like sushi—then you also have to teach him to cook.”—Auren Hoffman, Herald Philosopher

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish, and he will sit in the boat and drink beer all day.”—OldFox

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you have fed him for a lifetime. Teach a man to sell fish and he eats steak.”—Author unknown

Well, I meant to share this advice but instead, I found out that human’s mind travels very wild…hahaha