ijhiz nafsaka!...oppss silap..."jahhiz nafsaka"

precisely at the moment i felt useless n time wasting, a beautifully striking lesson hit straight on my nose...well, it wasn't like i dun have anything to revise or homework to be done...just, sometimes...i don't feel like it...so, this is what happened when i became bored~

lynne: is it true...u r always bz?
ammar ehsan: hahaha...


(nmpk sngt x de keje...sorry i disturbed u cat!...but it was worth it..:p)
asking him about his experience as an oversea stdnt...(joyful to hear it from an elaborative point of view...nicely done cat!)...but the best part dat made it worth it n i think it's nice to share it with evrybody...is the story about his super sr...

am not too sure about his history but here is his blog
n truly it is inspirational!...after reading wut he has gone through...
getting to know that he has hodgkin's lymphoma during his medical studies, he still did pass his final years n can jot down his experience in a blog while still continueing treatment~

suddenly i felt ashamed...
it's funny i still have time to wonder what i should be doing when actually piles of work are stacking itself before my eyes~...
can i face anything like dat?

hurm...
but i felt grateful that, eventhough i meant to chat around, God sent me a wonderful message...that i am not yet prepared...life is still long and still plenty of things to be done before that destiny...that awaits me...comes and fetch me...
hopefully i have done packing by then~

preparing~

in simple words i meant to deliver...ijhiz nafsaka! jahhiz nafsaka!
('prepare urself' in arabic - jz learnt that word this morning actually...hope the grammar is right...hehe)

22 oct 2009

correction:...jz asked my arabic teacher dis mornin...jahhaza the root word of prepare, when is used for an order is jahhiz...
there is no such word as 'ijhiz', but 'ijhaz' means 'attack urself'...LOL...
a splendid language...just a tiny mistake the meaning is out of the window~

eg: (my teacher gave this morning...)

wird ('wau-ro'-dal' the letter wau is pronunciated as 'wi') : habituation
ward (also 'wau-ro'-dal' but the letter wau is pronunciated as wa) : flower
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another funny and going-to-be-embarrasing incidence this morning...

my teacher asked for an english idiom...without thinkin much n with absolute confidence, i said...

"lady fingers...it means a person who is good with plants"...

my teacher argued..."why shud it be a lady, not a man???"...i said i dunno...but as i walk home i realized...it wasn't "lady fingers"...it was actually "green fingers"...hehe...got to correct myself in my nex clas...huhu...

toshuhai sharaku

slamat hari raya!!!

as today is PERUBATAN celebration of our eid mubarak~



and...am dedicating this post to an unknown japanese (to me...i apologize if you do know him...no offense k) because...he...being alived in the 18th century, managed to gain RM 2 million from an auction of his painting!!!

of course, he wouldn't even get to feel the money coming, but hey!...that's a very fat fortune~
and i believe, he didn't even thought his paintings back then can be auctioned this much!
so, this is the one auctioned in paris a coloured painting of a japanese actor arashi ryuzo (i translated from utusan dated 17 oct..hehe)

arashi ryuzo

well, to get that picture, i have to search...and got stuck up in a website called artcyclopedia...walla!...

i love drawing, but never get the chance to really learn it properly...though i practised them in my bz tyme...hehe...ok, simply...i have an absolutely 0% of knowledge on arts...(keen to know though)...but, i still can't keep in what bothers my mind here...

what is so pretty about that painting to be auctioned for RM 2 million???

well, in that website, there's this 'top 50 posters' of arts which is based on its cumulative sales on that website...and, #1 is....

the kiss

by gustav klimt...an austrian painter in the early 19th century (from wikipedia)...well, again...i fail to see the value of this painting~...

hurm...though am really into arts...(drawing n music)...but unable to see this as valuable as most of the people in this world do...i think i know why am destined to persue in pure scientific academical field~...

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

"Jihad (holy fighting in Allah's cause) is ordained for you (muslims) though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know."

surah alBaqarah verse 216

i know this verse is quite famous (since it was in one of the islamic love novels)...well...not only for marriage ok guys!....hehe

(it really is difficult living in my age right now where i get invited to weddings throughout the year~)

humanitarian preservation

the more i learn medicine...journeying towards an ability that can be applicable in humanitarian acts...i found out am loosing more of my sympathy...

my target does not cohere with my path...(in this situation)...is it permittable?

~after a session of circling around the forensic museum...i was discussing about babies in jars...goodness gracious!...

the price of knowledge...

my memory~

i've just had a lecture...quite interesting...remarkable i suppose~
about burns...


(it's hot to go!!!...H-O-T-T-O-G-O...it's hot to go..aummm...)
one of the cheers mase hari sukan~:D

but i realized how much i've forgotten my 1st and 2nd years lesson...

talking about layers of skin...of scalp...even the anatomy of head...

pondering again into the holy book al-Quran...i found this...

In the Name of Allah, the Most Benificient, the Most Merciful

"And never say of anything, I shall do such and such thing tomorrow."

"Except (with the saying), 'If Allah will!' And remember your Lord when you forget and say: 'It may be that my lord guides me unto a nearer way of truth than this.'"

surah alKahfi verse 23 and 24...

may we all get guidance from Allah...ameen...

plus, another thing about burns...i don't think i'd like to imagine this verse

In the Name of Allah, the Most Benificient, the Most Merciful.

"Surely! Those who disbelieved in Our Ayat (proofs, eveidence, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) We shall burn them in Fire. As often as their skins are roasted through, We shall change them for other skins that they may taste the punishment. Truly, Allah is Ever Most Powerful, All-Wise."

surah anNisaa verse 56

no wonder pain receptors are most sensitive on skin...even pain in viscera are referred to skin~

ouch!!!

blank

feelings are the most beautiful and delicate substance ever created on earth...

i never give a tot about feelings as i see them as trivial matter, before...but now i understand what the feeling of missing somebody really about...

luckily i studied here, or i may not meet the meaning of 'miss' at all...

gosh am becoming gurlish~

fishing~

seems like am attracted to animals as a motivator...they do help a lot though, to make us understand~

but i was afflicted by this comic here...

because funny enough...

i was just planning on posting the 3rd advise from doctor fauziah which is, teach the man how to fish...don't give him the fish! (in my simplified note)...skiving for images that can describe the meaning of this 'quote'...i was quite startled to find this comic here came into the result...well, top three of the line drawings means almost something like this one...

as far as i am concerned, this 'quote' is quite famous...surely they should've put the obvious meaning...but, as i explored a little more, i found out that i am not up-to-date here...because, i discovered this from http://www.amatecon.com/fish

The Original

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you have fed him for a lifetime”—Author unknown

The Improvements

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you will not have to listen to his incessant whining about how hungry he is.”—Author unknown

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you can sell him fishing equipment.”—Author unknown

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to use the Net and he won't bother you for weeks.”—Author unknown

“Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. Unless he doesn't like sushi—then you also have to teach him to cook.”—Auren Hoffman, Herald Philosopher

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish, and he will sit in the boat and drink beer all day.”—OldFox

“Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you have fed him for a lifetime. Teach a man to sell fish and he eats steak.”—Author unknown

Well, I meant to share this advice but instead, I found out that human’s mind travels very wild…hahaha

the donkey in a well

observing the arrival of this year's jr brings forth memories of my days...miraculously, am going into my 4th yr now...haha...it seem just like yesterday my first time here...

jr mara

The Donkey in a Well

s usual...we tell them of how life in egypt...always expect the worst...haha...but to survive physical n mental dilemmas, jz be positive...which brings me to The Donkey in a Well story...

this story is among the 22 advises from dr fauziah which i met in langkawi...

well, normally...a donkey is known to be very dumb...but today's donkey is the one gonna motivate you...here goes~

once upon a time in a very humble and down throdden vilage,there was an old donkey, who worked very hard for his master every day of the year...one day, being very thirsty he went near a well longing for its water to rise up...a rabbit came passing by saw the look on the donkey's face...

'hmm...if only u r clever enough, u might get to drink from the well!' said the rabbit
'really? how so?'
'just climb up high enough to push that pail in and pull it back up with its rope once it's full of water...humans do it all the time!'
'but how to climb?'
'u have legs don't you?...use them! like this!'

the rabbit jumpped demonstrating...so the donkey, with a determined face aiming for the pail hanged on the well..jumpped with all his might...miraculously, he managed!...but sadly he landed....into the well...

'help!' he cried

peeping from above the rabbit looked down

'owh how thick can you be? why are you stupid enough to follow what i said???'

n he left the donkey all alone...so the donkey waited patiently...meanwhile, the farmer looking around worriedly for his beloved donkey became thirsty...he went to the well and to his surprise found out that his donkey was trapped at the bottom...

'dear dear...how did you get in there?'

he quickly ran back to the village and called people for help...interested on how a donkey manage to get itself into a well, many people came to see... and they discussed...

'it's really difficult to get him out!' said villager 1
'yes, the well is deep and the donkey is heavy, there is no way anyone can climb in and carry him out' said villager 2
'but he will die if we leave him there,by the way he is already old' said the farmer
'mmm...that solves the problem!' said vilager 1
'huh???'
'look...he's old, even if we manage to get him out he'll die eventually...so as not to make his death difficult, why dont we just bury him in here...and you can get another donkey for a change' replied villager 1

after considering that option, the farmer agreed to bury his faihful old donkey...so all of them helped to throw in sand...

but...

the donkey, sad at first on hearing their decision of burying him alive~, got another brilliant idea as a shovel of earth came down into the well...everytime they throw down the sand, the donkey climbed up onto the lumps of earth...and up, and up, and up he goes...until his misty old eyes get to see the shock on the villager's faces~...the donkey was saved!

-the end-

well, the lesson here...even on whichever side the donkey was being hurt (physically or mentally) he managed to look at it in a positive way...instead of being depressed about burried alive, he took the news nicely and managed to save himself...so, in reality...we can't avoid from being baffled by other though sumtime they did not mean it...so, just use what u are given at a time to make things brighter~

ya soidaliyah~

as i stroll along my familiar route to school with kak yana to send her back home we depart infront of the farmasi...a farmasi i love to crash in whenever in medical needs...bla3...so melodramatic...but this is sad~

though this is not the one...the pharmacy is the one dekat ngan kedai daging tuh...(tak taw bile nk amek gmbr kedai tuh)

as i waited for d-hah, kak yana told me...

"lynne tau x dr farmasi ni dah meninggal?"

"huh? meninggal???"

"a ah..."

"pak cik yg tembam2 putih2 pakai spec tue?"

"a ah...!"

"innalillah...huhu..."

"tu pasal farmasi ni x bukak2 dah since sebulan lepas~"

"dy x bkk da?...mane kak yana tau?"

"kinah kamil bgtaw...."

...shock!!!...

i am strongly reminded about an example a physiology doctor lectured us in my second year...

on how to understand the concept of the sensitization in short term plasticity of synaptic transmission...(cewah...mcm ingt, salin dr buku act...hehe)...she said~

it's like u walk evryday to school n u pass buildings...since it's your evryday route, u usualy took no interest in what's happening in the buildings around you...but one day...as you walk to school, a bakery you pass evryday to school caught a huge fire..."shock!!!"...starting that day on for another few days evrytime you pass the bakery, u will rmmbr it had burn down before until u get habituated...

that's what i feel like...dreading when will that pharmacy open its doors again evrytyme i passed it...only 2 and a half months away, and this news came...isk3

tribute to the farmasi owner~

(hehe...emotion is kind of wacky once i step foot in egypt)

two worlds...

i feel like i hav two different world...

the one here in egypt...and the one there in malaysia...
it's unjustifiable...coz i luv both as much

eid mubarak's tragedy~

salam syawal~
:D

'my best shot on our fireworks...this thing is really difficult to snap!'

almost everything in this world comes in pair...man and women, big and tall... and even happiness and sadness.... it is a custom in malaysia on each raya celebration, everybody have to feel happy!...but it's pair is quite hard for us to avoid right?

i spent my second day of raya till yesterday in terengganu and honestly not one day has passed whithout this thing screaming around...>>>

'sampai x cukop minyak', my mum said!

owh why do we have to destroy our happiness with dumb accidents???...but, i don't think i need to point out the obvious accident here do i?...car crash (knp perlu bawak laju???...sbb da lambat!)...firework explosion (sile maen...tp, jgnla smpai putus jari!)...but the worst tragedy though i don't think most of us noticed are...

diseases related accidents...

• heart attack
• diabetic coma
• stroke attack

and i notice these catastrophe are one of the most frequent callers for an ambulance!

'ambulance driver paling penat musim raye nie', again my mum said...

since we fasted for a month, still...it doesn't give us ticket to fill up our bellies till it burst~

all our raya delicacies contains loads of fat, sugar and salts...eating it once is enough to blow out a diseased person already...but numerous open houses needed to be attended...huhu~

nothing too much is good for us!

so, the conclusion is...eat to live don't live to eat!

p/s: i know this is a bit of fun spoiler...but too much fun is also not that good...:p...plus, credit to my mum as she never stop talking about health food throughout my summer holidays...hehe~

chocolate hazelnut cookies...nyum3...

sorry of the temporary uphold of my blogging...approximately 6 months after the last time my lappy was 'reformated',it agains gave way...have to be held captive for a few days in my uncle's fren's house...

anyway, it's nearing syawal...hehe...

it's sad that i don't think i've done the best i could to collect everything this ramadhan...also reminds me that i am only left with a few more days to be with my family here... but altogether, the spirit syawal brings is something to talk about...thus, our cookies step in~

this is absolutely my first time doing 'kueh raya' whithout my mother's supervision...not entirely though but the first few step i did it all by myself...since i love these cookies so much (finished a whole jar already...luckily another jar was spared for 'raya'...hehe)...am thinking of sharing it~

try it...i jz can't stop eating this...anyway, since tomorrow am going back to my kampong, i'd need to pause blogging for a while...hurm...

the saved jar of cookies...urgh!!!

slamat hari raya dan maaf zahir batin!!!

~it'd be sad to leave ramadhan whithout forgiveness and more blessings...since it is once a year...let's hope we are still alive for the next one!

accuracy...

assalamu alaykum...

today's tale that triggered my inner mind will be about the history of "ashabul kahfi"...which i assume most of you knew it,as it is also imprinted in our holy quran...

In the Name of Allah, the Most Benificient, the Most Merciful.

"and they stayed in their Cave, three hundred years, and add nine."

-surah al-kahfi verse 25 (literally translated)

what does the ashabul kahfi have anything to do with accurate?...well...it happened around january this year, one of my arabic teacher that tought me in egypt told us (my classmates and I) about what is hidden between this sentence...

why did Allah mentioned that the 'ashabul kahfi' stayed in that cave for 300 years and add 9 instead of 309 years?...there must be some interesting meaning hidden by the word 'add'...so al-mufassiriin studied this sentence and walla!~...they discovered the proof of Allah as the 'All Knower' and 'All Wise'...

on studying the meaningof this verse...they found out that, it was mentioned 300 years and add 9 because...

the 300 years represent the solar years whilst if we calculate it according to the lunar years it is 309 years...wicked huh?...
(each lunar year lacks 10 days compared to the solar years...)
isn't it amazing how accurate Allah is when retelling a history!!!! even on minor issue like this~ ...as we talk and retelling stories...sentences like this oftens comes out...

"erm...i think...maybe around three hundred years ago..."

"i dunno...it's sumwhere around 300 years i guess..."

many hesitance, loads of unsureness...well, Allah wasn't kidding when he sent down this verse...

"when you were propagating it with your tongues, and uttering with your mouths that wherof you had no knowledge, you counted it a little thing, while with Allah it was very great"

translation of surah an-Nur verse 15...

we could see now...by just talking, we might let slip some minor lies that may be completed into a big chaos... so being accurate is obligatory...we have to try, and if we do...what ever happens next we leave for Allah to decide...

~a sweet memory if i read surah al-Kahfi and a wonderful reminder to remember...
first of all to myself and for others...

destroying

as a human being...nothing is completely perfect...
but we must try to live as perfect as we can...meaning thoroughly~

because today i want to bring forth the second advise i copied from dr. jamilah;

"in whatever effort that we do, do not destroy something else!"

as we thrive throughout our live...we should realized that due to our lack of knowledge and greediness, we have doomed ourselves the end of our world...

- bombings
- harvesting (too much)
- hunting (too much too)

and all sorts of other stuffs...nuclear, oil and gas...
well, working for human's comforts is compulsory, but maintaining the ecological and world's physical balance is more crucial...isn't it?...

if only we studied everything thoroughly before recklessly practice them...

at least we get to excuse ourselves from any disaster...

is this understandable and worth to think about???

numb3rs...

assalamu alaykum~

today is about nothing significant...just about numbers...

today apparently is 090909...cool huh?
i've been dying since yesterday to make my post at exactly 09:09:09 a.m. 09 september 09... huhu...but i woke up at 9.30 a.m. and missed that moment...

looks like beautiful sequences is just not my destiny...hehe



last 7th august...my brother just reminded me that we missed a nice sequence...
12:34:56 p.m. on 7 august 2009...
it suppose to look like dis...123456789...

erm...
actually...1234567809

so on 7th august 2090 the sequence must've look nicer...

will i still be alive at that moment?....hurm~

only fifteen years old...

as remembrance of the 17th day of Ramadhon al Mubarak...


nuzul quran

a.k.a. the time quran is bestowed on earth...one of the subjects we can learn from al-Quran is 'sabab nuzul quran' which means the study of why a certain verse is sent down to earth...

reminds me of a story from my ustazah (ustazah eifat) from egypt...a story happened a long time ago...after our beloved prophet (s.a.w.) passed away...a story encircling surah an-Nasr

In the name of Allah, the Most Benificient, the Most Merciful

1. When comes the Help of Allah (to you, O Muhammad s.a.w against your enemies) and the conquest (of Makkah)
2. And you see that the people enter Allah's religion (islam) in crowds
3. So glorify the Praises of your Lord, and ask for His Forgiveness. Verily, He is the One Who accepts the repentence and forgives.
   

it happens on one of the meetings between 'sohabah' discussing the reason 'surah an-Nasr' was received...at the time, Umar ibn Khattab was the chairman of this meeting and he invited Ibn Abbas who at that time was only 15 years old...

talks came about among the sohabah and they argued the presence of Ibn Abbas as he was still young...but Umar ignored them...and he carried on with the meeting...

they were giving their own views on why this surah was sent...naturally many said due to the opening of makkah...when Ibn Abbas turn came, and he was ask for his view, he said...

"this is a sign, Allah was trying to tell us that the time has come for our beloved prophet (s.a.w.) to come back to Him as all his duties were fulfilled"

everyone in the meeting was astonished...how can he decipher such meaning from a simple surah like this...

because...
actually...
during our prophet (s.a.w.) was still alive...

He once prayed for Ibn Abbas the following du'a:

"Ya Allah, understand him (or make him clever in) our religion (islam) and teach him at-ta'wiil (knowledge of interpretation)"

in arabic words ( sorry, i dunno how to use the arabic alphabets on this lappy...)

" Allahumma faqqihhu fiddeen wa 'alimhu at-ta'wiil"

-u can change the 'dhomir' to read it for your self-
add 'i' if for me
add 'na' for us
add 'ka' or 'ki' for you

and so on, no one ever doubts the presence of Ibn Abbas in their meetings.

i apologize if there is any mistake regarding the story as i didn't record it thoroughly, but the lesson and the du'a is one of my priceless diamonds i gained in Egypt...

snake hole?...watch out!!!!

skimming for something to write in my blog...finally, i found something out~
a quote that i'd like to share,
i got it from an OnG specialist...dr. fauziah...during FIMA camp in langkawi...
and i managed to jot down about 23 advises from her...let's take the very first one~

"muslim should not go into a snake hole twice!"

the reason she wanted to give us advises as a muslim, doctor-to-be and a volunteer-to-be
so that her younger and suppose to be stronger generations would not make the mistakes she has done...but, nobody is perfect right?...

therefor, learn from our mistake and never repeat it...

our desire

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Fair in the eyes of men Is the love of things they covet;
Women and sons;
Heaped-up hoards of gold and silver;
Horses branded (for blood and excellence);
And (wealth of) cattle;
And well-tilled land.
Such are the possessions of this world's life;
But in nearness to God is the best of the goals (to return to)

(translation of surah al-imran verse 14 from text, translation and commentary of the holy quran by A. Yusof Ali)

as i ponder around in the Holy Quran yesterday, i came across this verse and it reminds me of a talk not long ago by a sheikh i guess who i have forgotten about...(huhu)

but i remember the contents of his talk which of course triggered my inner mind...

he said that since the early life of human being to this modernized world we live in, there are nothing but these common yearning human has always seek for their life in this world...and Allah has mentioned in the Holy Quran in surah al-Imran verse 14 that they are;

• wife and children
• lots of money
• a luxurious car or vehicle
• wealth and houses
• fertile land

either before

now

or in the future

5 things that i bet has cross each of your mind once in a while right?

i typed perfect lifesytle in google image and these came up
???

but in verse 15 Allah continues

Say: Shall I give you glad tidings of things far better than those?
For the righteous are Gardens in nearness to their Lord,
With rivers flowing beneath;
Terein is their eternal home;
With companions pure (and holy);
And the good pleasure of God.
For in God's sight are (all) His servants

(translation from surah al-Imran verse 15)

the point here is, Allah knows what we want but He said, those are just the pleasure of present life, at His side are far better return (paradise, eternity...)

so, don't be frustrated if we cannot reach this present life reward...aim for the eternity...

just curious...does any five of those things ever crossed your mind?

make it easy

this morning, as i was flipping the channels, a tv show on astro oasis catches my eyes..."bahtera perubahan"...a talk by dr mohd asri zainul abidin...

his sentence that made me stop pressing the remote control was
"orang yang baru masuk islam pon susah nak faham islam"

mmm...y? he said...(it means like this but he spoke in malay)

before, in Rasulullah time...the young generations heard his preeches and instantly felt unequivocally into forgoing islam...how?
Rasulullah explains the core of being a muslim...simple,straightforward rules
there is only one god which is Allah
Allah 'see' (maha melihat), so His followers understands that Allah sees everything
Allah 'hear' (maha mendengar)....n so on
so that everybody can understand, whether high or low educated people...

but nowadays we complicate our religion, we explain the philosophy of islam, not the 'akidah', eg: types of waters, sifat2 Allah, all the memorizable stuffs...
it's difficult for people who doesnt understand islam yet to practise this, infact, islam is not just memorizing...

"don't make people run away from islam"

i personally think it is true, because...it takes me years to finally understand why i am a muslim even though i was born as one...
being a muslim is not heritable!

pain~

assalamualaykum...

a topic of the day...it's been 2 days now since the operation...holding up to the surgical pain made these to days felt longer...but i came to realize, physical pain is more tolerable than emotional pain...

is it really?...this is what keep badgering my mind right now...maybe with anesthetics, it is more tolerable...hehe

"i really need to study how to use this internet properly...mmm...when???"

facial expression...

it hurts a lot!!!
not during the surgery...but after...i got 3 teeth out in one go...lucky though, because if it is done separately i don't think i'll go for the second appointment...hehe
n know my face is absolutely distorted~...(like a pear)

so talking about my distorted face...i'd like to point out my thoughts about facial expressions....

before i use to judge what people are thinking based on their facial expression...whether

but, somehow, now i realized...certain people just look like that but they didn't mean it inside.
one example happen to a friend of mine, her upper eyelid is drooped a bit in a nice way though, malays call it "mata kuyu", people tend to think she is sleepy all the time, but she isn't...huhu...

don't judge a person by his expression~

hehe...but at certain times we need to be aware of other's expression so as to not hurt their feelings~