honey, i've shrunk the kids!

last wednesday, i had a lecture about gastritis...
one of the common cause of inflammation of the stomach is an infection by a gram negative microaerophilic bacterium called H. Pylori...

one of the test done to diagnose the presence of this bacterium in our stomach is called 'rapid urease test'
Dr Ali Farag (who was the lecturer lecturing us that day) explained further...urease test used to be difficult to be done before because the equipment used can fill a huge room...but now, the kit is just the size of our palm...

ting*

i was brought back across time where watching television was one of my daily activity...
(how fun is our mind...it can time travel!) <<== sumone told me this ;)
i was reminded of a movie called "Honey, I've Shrunk The Kids!"
directed by joe johnston...

it got me thinkin, H. Pylori was only discovered about 2-3 decades ago...how fast has our technology progressed and developed eyh?
we didn't only shrunk the urease kit test...LOL
we got mini cameras in pills to diagnose stuff way deep in the small intestine
we got we got nanotech now that build stuffs using the microscope...
or simply...juz see how our phones n netbooks or ipads are getting as smaller n thinner as they can be
(now even the technology wants to be on diet...LOL)
it's like the writer of this movie has foreseen the future - that movie was released in 1989
ironically that was the year i was born!...no wonder it's stuck in my head~



but, no matter how much we've progressed and achieved in making our daily life easier...if that doesn't help us progressing in our human value...this world is still not a better place..:(
mayb we've shrunk our hearts too?

*alhamdulillah Egypt is better than usual, and will insyaAllah get out of this mess better than before
*May we all be guided by Allah to make the best of our time here :)

common is common..but..

since i was in first yr, i've been hearing my lecturers saying "common is common"...
usually if we asked for explanations of complicated unknown 'theories'...
today though, in Andrology...Dr Hamed Abdullah stress on the rare ones (he still explained about the common ones)

and also, he gave a quote at the beginning of his lecture which reminds me of a medical research seminar i've gone through during the summer...in one of the critical thinking sessions, we were given pictures and were asked to give 10 description in 1 minute...the first picture was easy, a picture of which when we look at one angle is a pretty young woman but at another angle is an old woman (you can picture the women right?)...the second picture showed that if we look in details were Italian people performing on stage with dancers but from a wide scope was a mother smacking her child (unfortunately i can't find this picture)...and the third picture...

i'd like to ask you to describe it...
in one glimpse, what do you think you've just seen?

among 90 of us, most description was about a couple, a picture engraved on a jar...most of 'em i bet r in your minds...*this picture reminds me of christina aguilera song...am a genie in a bottle~~~ lalala...hee
but, one candidate said...i see dolphins!!! (mainly because he's been tricked by this picture before..hehe)
so...can you tell me...how many dolphins are there?

the Dr. who presented this critical thinking session said something like this..
Interestingly, research has shown that young children cannot identify the intimate couple because they do not have prior memory associated with such a scenario.
*i copied the words from this blog (i lost my notebook from that seminar...mayb accidently left it in malaysia..huu)

so...there are...
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9 dolphins...
*i apologize if this picture is offensive in anyway...

Dr Hamed Abdullah's quote at the beginning of his session was :-
"The eyes cannot see what the brain does not know"
which reminds me of this picture...

*as am progressing in maturity..hehe..ok, serious...this picture ironically got me thinkin...that am gonna face a tougher challenge in raising my future generations than my parents had...not jz me...we all will...some of us already are...
(Ya Allah...do protect Hani, Iman, Ulfah, Umar, Ulya and other muslim children...no discrimination intended, they jz currently felt more closer at the moment...hehe)

plus, this quote is also the reason Dr Hamed Abdullah stressed on the rare diseases...because the incidence are rare we tend to hesitate to give the diagnosis, or we are not familiar with them...but they should at least be at the back of our minds...
the patient who came knocking at your door may b the less than 1% case...but he's the one you are treating now...:)

everyday

as we walked through our days...
some things passed by absent-mindedly..kinda hard to catch up with everything
my surgery professor Dr Hussein Khairy loves to say, "today's sunday?..when sunday comes the next sunday comes by much quicker! time is moving very fast..."
(in egypt we start our weeks on sunday)

life offers us so much, that we.. rushing through our days sometimes fail to appreciate them
so i proposed a game to a few friends...
to write down each day a word...
a word that catches our heart most, that can be felt down to the core...hehe

and here are the words we shared together..:)

1. sarcastic

touched someone's heart because the idea of being sarcastic, can compromise the bond in a relationship...especially if we are being sarcastic to someone who aren't close to us..close people usually put up with us...but for how long...

2. complicated

this one was extracted from our ECG class...the dr who taught us the fundamentals of ECG, trying to explain it...he said " i wish the electrical activity of the heart was as simple as wut i just told you...but unfortunately it's more complicated than that...and that's also life"...and it got one of my fellow thinking, life...how simple it is on the surface...it's complicated beneath..

3. determination

another friend of mine had a trouble of choosing between two difficult choices...one cannot go with the other,
remarkably...she found out that her determination to succeed made her drop the other choice (which if it was me...i'd falter)..a determination helps us get through the roughs

4. heart

a friend told us this word has two important task...heart, literally means the anatomical one which beats 70 times every minute to make sure we stay alive..but it also means our conscience...being human, it is also essential to have our heart put in the right place..a person cannot live with just taking care of the 'one side' of his heart..

5. psychoneurosis

the one who shared this word was tested with an illness that made her stayed out of school for a couple of days...being bedridden all those times, she understood how psycho feels like.
in life, we need people around us..n being alone drives us mad...can't agree more!

6. emotion

everyone has felt being mad at one point throughout his life..this feeling generated from our extrapyramidal tract (theoretically) gives us the sensation of a whorl of emotions...so we'd focus more on the pressing matters and forget the overall picture...this friend said...during this crucial time..we usually made bad decisions and utter hurtful words...emotions compromise the rationales...where in that point...we need to control it..

7. rainbow

because she was forced to rushed through her days with frustration at each stop..just because she made the wrong decision, she began to regret those wasted times...but, when the problem was solved...she saw the "rainbow" of her going through all those frustrations and spending those lost times...lean and hope to the 'Everlasting', will never dissapoint u at all she said

8. mind

this word was chosen because of the powerful ability it has, almost like time travelling or being in the other side of the world in a matter of seconds...she said..once ur mind start working...it's there already, even before ur physical starts doing it...like recollecting old sweet memories, planning on your future..and walla!...it's all in your mind..and positive minds invite positive reality

just thought that sharing this is beneficial..
pause our life once in a while..if not everyday...once a week or once a month...or, if you have too much ample time, try searching for the diamonds and gold every hour or minutes...hehe

as i glanced up

this morning, i was woken up by a call from a friend (hehe...panna)...asking me to accompany her for a look out at Dr. Qenawi's extra surgery clinical class...hmm, in the confusion of just waking up...i agreed...haha
(gurau je, i did hav the intention...but u've given me the push :)

so, i went there alone (panna had to finish some stuffs in tahrir, so she came a bit later)...as i walked through the male ward in Dr. Amru Gad's unit, seeing so many egyptians, my heart started to quiver...am i gonna b d only malaysian?...hehe...but i kept on walking to the end of the ward...and saw amir...fuh...and eckm n yusri came too...wouldn't b alone then...:)

a polite egyptian guy offered me a seat in that already packed class...sitting alone, dunno wut to do...i glanced up...my eyes fell straight on a girl immediately in front of me,she was reading the Quran...whoa, i missed this view...used to see this during Ramadhan in Egypt...

after about 45 mins waiting...the dr came and announced to anyone who brings a flash drive to come with him...i missed the part of why we need to follow him (he was using egyptian arabic, and i wasn't paying attention)...then, everybody got up...i asked eckm, where is everybody going...he said, the class will b in the ward mayb...and i saw evrybody carrying their chairs to the male ward n the nurses pushing patient's beds out...and even patients offering their beds to students for a seat...

as most of the students have taken their seat, i saw many more of my colleagues taking out the Quran, reading It...
one of the patient offered me his bedside table to sit on...i sat beside Manar, we exchange names and smiles...and then, she took out her Quran...the girl beside her was also reading the Quran in her mobile...urm, this caught my attention...

and at last...Panna came...so, naturally...i shared my finding with her..."ramai orang baca Quran hari ni..." addressing my fellow colleagues..."owh, ha aa...iyelah...ni kn awal zulhijjah..."..."owh yea...x teringt pulak"..this reminds me how Egyptians celebrate eidul Adha more festive than eidul Fitri...:)
"jom kite baca hadith" panna invited me taking out her booklet of an Nawawi forty hadiths...<3

hehe...made my day today...and...thnx for giving me that "sweet" idea panna :D

am sorry i havnt scribbled in here for a very long time...(over 2 months)...got caught up in some other stuffs n problems...though i wished i'd get to share all my encounters in here...just another one and a half yr to go through in Egypt...kinda sad about the idea to leave this so educational place, but i really hope not to lengthen my stay here...
do lend ur prayers for us final years...please....:D

finally, wanna end my post today with this

found it in facebook from k teah's post...it's so pleasant
huu...miss u so much k teah!!

with grandma...

last saturday, my grandma, my mom and dad and i went to seksyen 7 to accompany my grandma to the dentist..
for her final stage of dental implant...

as my grandma was called in, my mom n dad followed suite...huh?...nk ikot jugak la! (i followed in as well):p

after my grandma lie comfortably on the dental chair, Dr Firdaus took out her x ray and praised how excellent the implant is!
(but i can only see two rod sticking in the incisor part of the mandible)...hmm?

then, Dr Firdaus said he'd put in some anesthetics, we'd need to wait for another half an hour or so, and he will call us back in to put in my grandma's teeth...i looked at the set of lower dentures sat on his surgical tray...
urm, why would he need anesthesia to put in that dentures? i questioned...

it was like this image except there were only two implants on the lower central incisor's part

so, slowly...i went to my dad's side and asked him..."ntah!, kklg tanye la dr!" (i dunno, why don't u ask the dr!)...urmm...shy as usual (haha), i kept quiet...so, as dr firdaus finished anesthetizing my grandma and we were about to go out of his examination room, my dad asked him
"ni...my daughter tanye why do u need to anesthetize her grandma"
"owh, to make like a clip for her denture to her implants...tak pe, nnt i show u how i do it!" dr firdaus replied with a smile...i returned his smile...and we've broken the ice!

so, for the second time in dr firdaus's room...i asked here and there as he worked on my grandma...felt like in an operating theater with a very helpful teaching dr...
"okay, we use a 12-blade to expose the implant"...he started..."and cut out the mucosa covering the implant i've drilled in 3 months ago"...
"we use titanium for the implant as it integrates excellently with the bone! see, no signs of inflammation at all" he said pointing at the xray and my grandma's lower jaw..."u see, Subhanallah!!!...among all the stuff our body rejects and make and inflammation around, on titanium, it doesn't...not only our body does not reject it...the bone even integrates with titanium..any other metal...even calcium...if we put calcium rod in our body our body defense will reject it or even another human bone!...but not titanium!"

"why?"...

"not sure, it was found accidentally!"

"who found it?"

"an orthopedic surgeon actually...Dr Branemark, he was doing his master research about blood flow in bone, so, he used a rabbit's femur and borrowed his professor's microscope...he put the microscope in the bone and observed...his master research was a success...and his professor asked for his microscope back...and that is when he realized, not only the microscope was stuck...the rabbit's bone even integrates with it...and that microscope was made of... Titanium!"

"accidental discovery!" my mum said

"yup, most discoveries were realized accidentally...they happen everyday in front of us, it really depends on us, whether we are a good observer or not...see, Branemark there could ignore the fact that his professor's microscope was stuck and just chip off the rabbit's bone...but instead, he saw this as a new finding...and investigated it!

"wow!"...loading these infos...hehe

i learned a lot from Dr Firdaus dat day...and seriously i felt like am back in Cairo for a moment there...hehe

there were many other topics we discussed about in that hour and a half procedure...and dun worry, Dr Firdaus has the best interest in his patient, my grandma was comfortable as ever during our whole discussion...
after discussing titanium's structure and how to wait for it to blend in with the jaw first before clipping on the dentures...we talked about acrylic resin... it caught my eye, cause acrylic exert exothermic heat...Dr. Firdaus even let me test it...hee..:D

well, this is too long already i guess,
thinkin of taking dentistry?...hehe, they say we can get rich easily being a dentist...
but medicine has always been my passion...hmm...

well, from his talk...what i get is, be observant!...the truth might just be starring in our face this whole while...and we might be the next huge discoverer!!!

slamat mengejar malam lailatul qadar!!!...:)
owh, pray for me and my family too k!

لمّا...

a few days ago, someone cancelled their class with ustaz mahmoud or came late...i dunno which
which i end up having ustaz mahmoud as my teacher (am studying with ustazah jihad now)...
and of course, his classes always triggers something in my cerebral cortex...
that day, a fair few significant stuff caught my eyes...but today i wanna share about "لمّا"

لمّا... is one of the أدوات الجزم
أدوات الجزم are "characters" or words when put in front of a present tense or an ordering verb will cause that verb to either have  this sign "a ْ " (the one above letter 'a') on it's last letter or loose حرف العلة if it ends with either ا-و-ي or loose ن if the verbs are one of the افعال الخمسة

that was briefly...for further info
أدوات الجزم : http://ar.wikipedia.org/wiki/فعل_مضارع#.D8.A7.D9.84.D8.AC.D8.B2.D9.85
افعال الخمسة : http://ar.wikipedia.org/wiki/أفعال_خمسة

what caught my eyes was...the meaning of  لمّا
ustaz mahmoud recapitulated to me the meanings of لمّا one by one:
1. it تجزم the present tense verb
2. when it is added, it negates the verb
3. it changes the meaning of that present tense verb and make the verb means past
4. and also means that the negative verb is still happening till present (to the time frame of the speaker)
5. plus, the verb has a potential to be done in the future...

ustaz mahmoud said that...we use "لمّا" when we wanna express that it is weird that this verb has not occurred and still not being done...
for example:

كبر الغلام ولمّا يتعلم

the child grew but still not learning

it's weird for a person to grow up but not learn a thing...and of course, in the future this child might be learning something...

and so...in surah  'Abasa verse 23...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

كَلَّا لَمَّا يَقْضِ مَآ أمَرَهُ 

which means:

23. Nay, but (man) has not done what He commanded him.

literally, we can understand the translation: human haven't done what Allah has told him
but deeply, when we apprehend the words by how it is used and expressed...the meanings becomes deeper...

now from this verse...after i understood what لمّا means...i see it like this
don't be like this!...humans haven't done and are still not doing what Allah has told them to do! and this shouldn't be happening...but, there is a potential that they will do what Allah has told them to do...

and by understanding this verse as i wrote above, the next verse' meaning seems continuous.

how beautiful it is to get it...and لمّا is simply just a character...not even considered a word in arabic...

now i see why Allah merit each letter in the Quran when we pronounce it...

i still have much to learn...and sadly am progressing too slow for the time i have left...
so do correct me if am wrong...

let's read the Quran as much as we can during this wholly month as -

الفرض فيه بسبعين فرض و السنّة بفرض

each obligatory practice is rewarded 70 times and each sunnah practice will be rewarded as obligatory ones

(ustazah jihad told me this)

selamat beramal di bulan Ramadhan...:D
*reminding myself mostly and anyone who's reading...

precious

"my precious"...it reminds me of Gollum from LOTR
(if u have the time...do click the link above and watch Gollum/Smeagol's internal affairs...until he succeeded...it reminds me that in Ramadhan...all the devils are tied up...so the one we are actually fighting with is...OURSELVES!)

before last two days...when i felt "relatively neutral"...
i know, Ramadhan is coming...and everybody is making it "The Matter" to be talk and think and hope about...
i get the intention...and i also thought i myself yearned for Ramadhan to come...
watching you tube, reading articles...praying "Allahumma Ballighna Ramadhan"...
or so i thought i've felt it...

but, just hours away before we welcome this Holy Month...
while i was in my Quran class with ustazah Maha...she got a phone call, that told her...
a junior in 2nd year passed away...Innalillahi wainna ilaihi roji'uun...

Ustazah Maha was so affected as she had taught that junior once...
every few ayat i stopped at, she'll mouth out these words...

"owh, her mom...she just flew back to malaysia"
"owh, her dad...what would he say to her mom..."
"in just 4 hours it'll be maghrib, and she missed it..."

and then, in my arabic class...ustazah jihad poured out her heart

"liyana, you know, now that i think of Khadijah (her daughter)...only 1 year and three months...everyday i see her wake up, starting to walk, eat, laugh, cry...i can't imagine how i'd be if she was taken away from me...and a mother that saw her child grew up to the 20ies...owh...her family and friends must be very devastated!"

"you know how meaningful is the du'a 'Allahumma Ballighna Ramadhan' that Rasulullah s.a.w. taught us?...it's not just some prayer you chant out after the solah absentmindedly...we really can't know for sure if we get to be in another Ramadhan..."

and after performing Maghrib prayer with her, she shook my hand and said
"Congratulation ya liyana! our first maghrib in Ramadhan!" beaming radiantly...and added..."Don't forget to pray for Faten Fasehah"...

and that night...after solat terawih...i stood watching her coffin pass by...
there...i took in...how lucky i am to feel and get to perform in another Precious Ramadhan...
owh, how i thought i've felt that...

It's Precious!
*talking to myself...reminding me...
Al-Fatihah to Faten Fasehah...and may Allah strengthen her family and friends~

communication

among the numerous essays i was required to write in Arabic, last monday, ustazah jihad asked me to write about 'asbab at-tolak'...(causes of divorce)...

lastu mutazawwijah ya ustazah! i replied...hehe
la budda 3ndik thaqofah!...7awil!...errmmm...so anyway, i scribbled away...thinkin hard of reasons reasonably...

i end up jotting down 3 causes
1. no communication
2. being extremely busy
3. loosing the sweetness of early days of marriage (the girls were shy and the guy were gentleman)...ni naimah yg pesan...haha

ustazah jihad was so excited reading my unplanned work...thus she ended up giving me all her tips on how to take care of 'a husband'...elaborating more on my points.
seems like ustaz mahmoud is very lucky to have her...:)

anyway, the most important she said is of course communication!
well, to me...not only in a marriage...in any relationships present in this world, communication proves to be a key solvent.

for example
wouldn't it be very difficult if A n B got into a misunderstanding that got B so upset and B decided to never wanna talk to A...
so how can A explain to B how the misunderstanding happened...
even if it's not a misunderstanding...say for example A actually did something very wrong...shouldn't A be given the chance to explain himself?

through my experience, when i try to advice someone like B to listen, they would say...
"'A' will try to cook up a story to explain himself!...i wont except nonsense!...i dun wanna hear it!"

usually, if this is a couple, A is the guy n B is the girl...and sorry to say, girls get upset easily and are very difficult to accept any other explanation apart from the prove they saw before their own eyes..
(i feel like writing men are from mars and women are from venus...haha)

anyhow...wherever we stand in a relationship, be it husband and wife, girlfriend and boyfriend, among our friends, mom and daughter, dad and son, teacher and student...etc etc...

take care of these relationships you possess...throw away the communication barrier...learn to listen and be wise in responding...

"limaza kullu hazihi dhojjah? taqulu bil hudu' lau samaht~..solli 3ala muhammad!"

(why are you scolding? please, say it calmly~ solli 3ala muhammad!)

a sentence i learnt from ustazah jihad

and the most precious relationship that should be our utmost priority to keep is between ourselves and Allah...:)

this reminds me of a story ustaz mahmoud told us in one of the fiqh sirah classes...of our amirul mukminin Umar al Khattab...(i apologize first cause i dun remember precisely who were the other characters in this story)

so...a delegation from another country came to Madinah al Mukarramah to meet the leader of islam Umar al-Khattab...he asked around for his throne...and a guy responded..."there he is under that tree..." pointing at Umar al-Khattab
"owh!...thanks, but how do i meet him?" the delegation asked
the guy was confused?...does he need to explain how to walk to the obvious tree in front of them?
"just go there and meet him!" he replied~

how communication was made very easy before, even the most feared leader of Islam can be confronted by normal people... without all the hustle of bureaucracy~
a result of our beloved Prophet's guidance...

reminding myself mostly and to whomever reading this
Ramadhan is approaching....~

a very interesting video i found from a friend's facebook...:)

nisfu shaaban...

during my secondary school years (i went to a boarding school)...

every year, i've learnt that in nisfu shaaban (in the middle of Shaaban's month), there is a night where we recite surah Yaasiin thrice.

after each recitation, we read a du'a...and we 'hope'

after the first recitation we hope for a long life of goodness

after the second recitation we hope for 'halal' earnings

after the third recitation we hope for a complete faith (iman) when we die

(this...i literally translated from a booklet of Yaasiin and Du'a with malay translation)

dis year...coincidently on 14th Shaaban, me and another 10 of my friends headed to Dumyat...for a short vacation...guided by Fida n her husband...:)

thnx!

the journey was supposed to start at 6.a.m...hehe (i got out of my house at 6.20 due to the oversleep...huhu (panic giler packing)...we boarded the train at 7.30 (naseb baek sempat)

as we reached dumyat, we took a microbus to an apartment by the beach

a view from one of the windows...can u imagine how many people are down there! and dis isn't even 1/10th of the beach...i can say at least a 'number' of Egypt's population are here

rest for a while after the long journey wit this cute mind-calming girl...

though she looked annoyed i guess...hehe

then we went to see the end of nile river...honestly, i was really amazed by the view...after months living in cairo...it's a relieve to feel mother nature-

need to repeat dis pic...cause, usually when i use my own camera it's either am alone in it or am not in it...the latter is most...~

they tried to taste if there's a difference in the water...but when i look down, i was reminded of my mom...

she'll definitely say..."don't!...you might fall into the sea!"...hehe

hehe...jz can't resist...iman and her aunty erin...she sure does love her...:)

then we walk back home accompanied by the beautiful sunset~

carrying as much water as i can...~summer~

*itu topi pinjam...thnx azlin..:)

the best sunset picture i ever captured!

okay...enough with the pics...

that night...i felt really grateful to have my friends with me...

we recited surah Yaasiin together...a very memorable moment...if i weren't there...i might be alone at home...and might not be able to finish reciting surah Yaasiin up to three times...or even at all...but, alhamdulillah...wut r friends for right?...:D

*urm...pray for ust alang...

then, they had barbecue...i missed it...huhu...seriously can't open my eyes after that...so sad~

anyway...i thought, that was a blessing already...getting many companies at the night of nisfu shaaban...

but the nex day, after a long journey back home (approximately 6 hrs)...thinking am too exhausted to even open the fridge...suddenly, out of the blue...my landlord climbed up my fourth floor apartment, knocked on my door after maghrib with a complete set of Egyptian dinner...:D

(which i finished eating the next day though i was so hungry - signifying how plenty it was)

owh, how touching!...thank you so much ustazah Maha!...may Allah bless her eternally...

this month, Egypt seems more beautiful...:)

Allahumma ballighna Ramadhan!

jealous

i've been lookin up for the meaning of this word...
JEALOUS...yup!

but it doesn't really fit...
the feeling of wanting something for oneself only or the feeling of don't wanna share...
coz what dictionary.com explained means more like rivalry...

it reminds me of a surah i discussed with my landlord just before i started my final exams...

surah at-Tahrim...

generally, from what i understood...in the first 5 verses described and incident that happened among our beloved Prophet's wives...they were jealous of each other. so, Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon Him), to console one, he promised that he wouldn't visit the other one...(the tafsir is long...and the story is interesting, but i didn't remember all...)

and so Allah sent down surah at Tahrim, asking His messenger:

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

1. O Prophet! Why do you forbid (for yourself) that which Allah has allowed to you, seeking to please your wives? And Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

and Allah released Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) from his oath...

2. Allah has already ordained for you (O men) the absolution from your oaths. And Allah is your Maula (Lord, or Master, or Protector) and He is the All-Knower, the All-Wise.

then Allah described part of the incident and how He revealed it to His messenger...

3. And (remember) when the Prophet (peace be upon him) disclosed a matter in confidence to one of his wives (Hafsah), then she told it (to another i.e 'Aishah). And Allah made it known to him; he informed part thereof and left a part. Then when he told her (Hafsah) thereof, she said: "Who told you this?" He said: "The All-Knower, the All-Aware (Allah) has told me."

the next two verse, Allah warns Hafsah and 'Aishah...and the others too...

4. If you two (wives of the Prophet -peace be upon him-: 'Aishah and Hafsah -radiAllahu 'anhuma) turn in repentance to Allah, (it will be better for you), your hearts are indeed so inclined (to oppose what the Prophet -peace be upon him- likes); but if you help one another against him (Muhammad -peace be upon him-), then verily, Allah is his Maula ( Lord or Master or Protector) and Jibril and the righteous among the believers; and furthermore, the angels are his helpers.

5. It may be if he divorced you (all) that his Lord will give him instead of you, wives better than you - Muslims (who submits to allah), believers, obedient (to Allah), turning to Allah in repentance, worshipping Allah sincerely, given to fasting or emigrants (for Allah's sake), previously married and virgins.

in the sixth verse, everyone is reminded to protect ourselves and our family from hell fire, then we are told about repentance and this surah ends nicely with 4 examples of wives...two of which who disobeyed Allah, wives of Nabi Nuh and Nabi Lut and the another two wives of the  believers...Asiah (wife of the pharaoh) and Maryam son of Imran...

i apologize in advance if there are any mistakes in conveying the meaning of surah at Tahrim...do correct me if am wrong...:)

from here, i learnt that...even our beloved Prophet went through the turmoils of life...it will never escape anybody...
but still...jealous is not the real word to describe this yearning to possess for oneself...but it's the closest one or the most commonly used i may say...hmmm

dun  like feeling it..=.=

anyway...in the month of Shaaban, lets submerge ourselves with histories of our Prophet...and may it be our daily habits...:)
Allahumma ballighna Ramadhan...can't wait!

holiday?

^_^

time flew by like a blurr...huhu
and now i am only left with a single summer before it all ends...(hopefully!...kearah sifar dur thani!!!ameen)

so...in the past month...am pretty much stuck at home, reading...memorizing...sleeping...
one of those times where i talk to myself alot...or to my teddy...hehe...(not being nuts...i need to practice talking in egyptian)

gune bebo in the mean time...

everytime i felt my head is crammed...fida's facebook would be browsed...hehe, to look at this heartbreakingly cute iman!

but even though i didn't get to meet a lot of people...exam months taught me a lot!...plus it was in Rejab month...a month dedicated for our one and mighty God...this year around...it fits in very much as we everyday hoped and prayed He would make stuff easy for us...

Sungguh.peperiksaan itu satu 'modul tarbiyah'..

(from Natrah's status)

i hope the lessons we get through this year's experience of exams will make us a better person in the future...:)

5 years ago~~~
each and everyone of us just only started...we got through MMS week in INTEC and had the very fun 3 months course of preparation...
and it coincide with Rejab month too...

as i recalled a day in my class MEP5, ust Razi did a quiz or something like dat where we throw qeustions between each other (it was between boys and girls)...the one question i could never forget...from Faeid
"bacakan ayat alQuran yang sebut tentang isra' mi'raj" (of course he said it with his kelantanese accent...:)

whoa!!!very difficult i thought at that time...ust Razi looked around..."no answer?"...he asked us...
after a few minutes, one of the girls said -
"ayat yang kate 'minal masjidil haram ilal masjidil aqso'!"...sorry i forgot who answered that...
"iyelah...bacakan ayat tersebut, surah ap ayat brape"...Faied replied back...
hehe...nobody managed to answer that...

but to me it was a lucky question...as after that ust Razi explained that ayat to us
(surah isra' first verse)
how from ages ago till this moment, the land surrounding masjid al-Aqso was, still and will always be blessed...
and how it reminds us about Allah...
and how it should have united the whole muslim nation...
and about isra' mi'raj itself...
am not good in explaining these kind of info...but that day opened my eyes about my world...:)

sume da besar da skarang...

time pass by us so fast...it's like a blink of an eye...and there'll come a day when we'd feel like everything was just yesterday...a day or two ago...but we can never return back...

now we're in Syaaban...Allahumma balighna Ramadhan!...:)
have a nice holiday gen6 and others who are about to finish their xms...
and do also pray for our unity...

missing~

jz finished an MCQ paper...
the whole day yesterday...and today...
i've been missing this person...
dunno why...
so,
 ryte after i came down from the exam hall...i called him...

"hello...assalamualaykum!"
"waalaykum salam...haa, liyana!"...hihi...
"ayah kat ne nie?"...

and i pour out the stories of 2 days worth of exams...and talked to my mum
"ma doakan yana ea!"
:)
and the conversation ended...

still missing...wut did i miss?

and just now, skimming through facebook i realized...
today is father's day!
happy father's day ayah!!!...
patutla asek teringat...tersilap wish awal sngt aritu...huuu~

*ayah in yellow...or brownish yellow...
tgk gmbr nie teringt yen kate..".haa, yana...cepat amek gmbr prof2 tu!"...hee
seems like u'r the only one still without a white hair yet...:)
do stay young!

adapting and OBGYN

we have officially ended our obstetric and gynecology round yesterday!!!

which means...study leave has started and finals are around the corner...
which also means, we will see each other less...T_T
and books will be our besties...day and night!...hmm~

before i start to isolate myself, i'd like to share this very wonderful experience with all the obstetrician and gynecologist in Cairo University...

around the end of march, we started this famously known to be difficult course...
my seniors reminded me since the start of first semester to never miss a very beneficial morning class by Dr. Mahmoud Salem...i attended his first lecture, reluctant at first as i knew he'd convey in pure Egyptian arabic, but was surprised to find out that it wasn't that difficult to understand his lectures...
(dr mahmoud salem must be guilelessly earnest in teaching this subject)


"father rather than professor" 
a speech from Dr Mahmoud Salem after the party, shows, videos and gift from batch 2006 kasr el ainy...really enjoyed that party...and i felt how cheerful and fun it is with Egyptian...:D
miss attending his lectures almost every morning...~

as we approached the end of march, we were told that the Malaysian students were to be divided into 6 small groups...and each group would be mixed with a group of local students...and here my small group were placed in Dr Osama elShenoufy's unit...

and in this unit, we experienced more than medical science...:D
(i do not speak for my whole group though...in case anyone disagree...:p)
i can't deny our first few weeks were tough, no offense...but egyptian's culture is really different from our's...anyhow, we survived till the end of this round...

throughout those 8 weeks, i got the chance to...

* gain wonderful and very helpful egyptian friends...helping us with the language and giving us tips on how to communicate with egyptians...and also, i get to share some stories about their daily life and their childhood too...:D

* meet hardworking people (residents and professors in Dr Osama elshenoufy's unit)...

especially one of our resident, Dr Taymour...
he's the one who took care of our timetable, make sure professors came to our clinical and tutorials, heeds to any requests from them, set up the projectors and providing the markers...and surprisingly, i also met him in the clinics examining, diagnosing and treating patient...in the theater, c-secting pregnant womens...in the wards checking up patients charts...and, if we were to nag him, he never fail to confront us with his smile...
what a great multitasker!...err...i admit i do not know him personally well, but that was what i'd observed...it's an eye-opener...what with the fact that you understand how difficult life is in cairo or egypt per se...wow!

kak battah told us last night "one of the things i admire in egyptians is that they can still continue their life even though they are severely oppressed!"

all the doctors and professors in our unit were extremely helpful...:D
gratefull for the chance to meet all of them!

* witness how life started and the preciousness of being a lady (her gentle clutch)...as of course, all of the patients in OBGYN are women...once in a while i get to talk to their husbands if they were present...

and among the hundreds and thousands of stuffs we went through, the most valuable lesson from OBGYN specifically and 'thaurah' (revolution) generally that i get is...
*understanding the impact of "Change"...(the main issue i wanna talk about in this post actually...)
since Dr. Hossam Badrawi (head of OBGYN department) insisted to distribute and mix us up with the egyptians, a change that has been attempted before...but the difference this time is that we were divided into very small numbers so we were obliged to mingle with egyptians...it was difficult for us at first...and for some of them too...but, towards the end of 5th week...everybody kind of just accepted it...(ryte?)

what i am trying to convey here is...every change is not easy...after an abrupt change, we need to face a period where we have to adapt...and it's not a very pleasant period, but...once we got through it, it'll feel like breathing again...

like a fetus becoming a neonate...like a dependent child becoming an independent adult...like a single person getting married (ehem...hehe, i heard this example from kak battah...havn't gone through it yet...)...in our whole life we will need to face these changes...there will be pain and gain...and to get ourselves through it relatively fine...we have to acknowledge that we need this period of adapting...

a period where we make mistakes and we learn from them, we accept good new stuffs and throw out the bad ones and finally end up being a better person...the times we spent for this change, will turn out to be a very sweet memory...and a valuable lesson for our future...and it'll differ between each individuals time-wise...

Allah has destined us for these challenges, not to turn us down...but to rise us up towards Him...He promised there will be no obstacles before us that we could never face but He also mentioned that He won't change a nation if the nation itself does not work for it...so, from what i have experienced in OBGYN (specifically)... let's not cower from changes...let's give ourselves time to adapt!

acknowledging this fact will helps us to face these obstacles insyaAllah...change is hard but it's good...:)

thanx to Dr Hossam Badrawi who is willing to accept all our complaints...and the lesson it yields is priceless...
reminding myself mostly to never give up...and to anyone who reads this...feel free to correct me if am wrong...
the lessons are countless...and i believe, everyone of us learnt something different...:D

-source of inspiration to write "this" long (hehe): kak battah's wida' speech last night...

me, kak battah, ezzat (kak battah's son) and iqa...

kak battah has been staying in egypt for almost 9 years now, completed her degree in ainshams and also her sanah imtiyaz...and about to leave for malaysia end of this june...isk2...such an inspirational, easy-going and fun-to-be-with senior of us!...:D

well, i guess...this very extremely long post would cover up the days that i've and will miss...thnx for reading it till the end~...^_^

wishing Egyptians the best for their future...your efforts are what Allah sees...and may Allah bless Egypt with a greater future! (kagum dengan 'syabab-syabab' Egypt)

and also...best of luck to Gen6 and dof'et 2006...let's work hard and pray lots...and may we get the best results for our finals...:D
pray for us!

my sunshine

there's this person, who i can talk to as much as the day would let me...fight over funny stuffs...and share my life stories to...

a person whom i never think twice to disturb...
tok tok tok! yana ketok pintu...
"jangan kacau ona ngan ami kat dalam tu!" toknde marah..
"allaaa...nak cakap ngan ona!" yana terus ketok...
"kejap2...ape dia?"...ona pon bukak pintu...hehe

by the pool kat rumah lame umi nita...:D

yana da tak ingat da kenape yana suke sangat kacau ona dulu...
anyway, skarang da susah nak kacau...duduk jauh sangat...kalau tak...siyes rase nak pegi ambush rumah ona tonight...hehe

and also, she taught me this song:



hehe...ona ingt lagi x?...nanti yana ajar aina nyanyi jugak...:D
n she's a sunshine in your life too now...

ona kate ona ske tgk aina senyum camnie...hehe...kene make sure x de gigi rongak la...:p

anyway...just wanna say:
selamat hari jadi ona!...
sweet 42...eh silap2...sweet 18!...haha
semoga kehidupan ona bahagia dunia akhirat!
nak kacau tadi...x angkat phone plak...hehe...
have a nice birthday!!!
miss you aaaaalllllll the time...
*kem salam kat ur officemates...hee~

marsupialization

have you ever heard of that word?
yesterday in dr mahmood salem's class, he described about ovarian tumor.
one of the complications of an ovarian cyst or tumor is infection...
if the infected stuff adheres to the colon, it would be very difficult to remove it as the colon contains feces...(incase you accidentally cut the colon, the feces will spill all around the peritoneum...no no!)
so what surgeons would do is...marsupialization.

Marsupialization is the surgical technique of cutting a slit into a cyst and suturing the edges of the slit to form a continuous surface from the exterior to the interior of the cyst. Sutured in this fashion, the cyst remains open and can drain freely. This technique is used to treat a cyst when a single draining would not be effective and complete removal of the surrounding structure would not be desirable.
-from prof wikipedia

and in dr adel farouk's class yesterday's afternoon, he also mentioned marsupialization in treatment of bartholin's duct cyst

plus, dr adel added...marsupialization came from a latin word 'marsupial', which means pouch...
'zai kongga!"...
konnga?...wut's kongga?...
i googled it up...and found out it is a kangaroo...hehe...

and my search also led me to this very beautiful video...



subhanallah...can you imagine an embryo climbing up it's mother's belly?...like an actual embryo!...it's a fetus already if am not mistaken...but seriously...pinkish and almost lucent...
this world is magnificent!

why havn't i knew this information before?...god i can't believe it!
adeeq, if ever you are reading this...owh, please bring me back a kangaroo!...:D
*i'll make sure u'll read it anyway...hehe

natural is the best...

i must say, since i've been living in egypt these almost past 5 years, there's never a year past without me inflicted with a GIT upset...(tibe2 rase malu lak nk cakap sal topic nie...:p)

but anyway, what i really wanna forward here is the miracle of these stuffs...

marmariyah + kammoon + na3na3 (no. 3 represent letter 'ain in writing)
p/s: am not sure if these names are exactly correct, i spelled it out from my landlord's articulation...

owh, i dun remember if i've ever mentioned this before, but i've been very fortunate to have such a caring landlord...their whole family treated us like their own children...ustazah maha n ustaz moataz

every week i'll drop by her house as she teaches me how to recite the quran...and this week i came along with my upset stomach...and she began to question me (frankly, better than 'the doctor' taking my history)

bla bla bla...and i answered...bla bla bla...and she asked..."have you seen a doctor?"
"yup, they gave me panadol for my fever and antibiotic."
eih??? (what???) no no no, you need to drink something hot! ana haa'mil wahdah! (i'll make one!)
and she went into her kitchen

few minutes later, she came back with a cup of yellowish colored fluid...it perfumed the whole room...smells nice, but i still doubt the taste...

"take it while it's hot! this is good for stomachaches! or flu...or anything!" she instructed me

"hurm...fi sukkar?" (is there sugar in it?)

"aaa... aiyuwah fi, ana 'arif enti bihibbi sukkar!"...hehe (aaa...yup, i know you love sugar!)

"eih di?" (wut are these?) i asked, pointing at the cup

"dol?...marmariyah we kammoon we na3na3...ahsan min antibiotic!" (these are....---....they are better than antibiotic!)

(dis one i made at home...look how beautiful that flower like thing suspended in mid water...:D)

i took a sip...not bad...it tasted different but nice...herbal like~

"el marmariyah di min el arisyh, sahbiti tigibli!" (this marmariyah came from el arisyh, my friend brought it for me!")

ooo...i dunno what to reply next, basically because i lack of egyptians vocab...but...wow! from somewhere near Palestine?...kind of an honor isn't it?...
wish i'll have a chance to step foot there once...(dreaming~)
*i've been to el arisyh in july 2007...but just as far as 5 km i guess away from Gaza's borders...and then our bus drivers were hushed away by the guards...they were soldiers i guess, but i still regard them as guards...i mean...soldiers are people we look up to...not look down at...

anyway, after class...ustazah maha packed a plastic of those stuffs for me

"di...wahid ma'la'ah soghir ma'a kuub mayyah sukhna fi sobah, masyi?"
(this, one teaspoon in one cup of hot water in the morning, ok?) 
she prescribed to me with her hand gestures to make sure i understood...hehe

and alhamdulillah, the abdominal pain went away~...:D
unfortunately, i still don't know which food i ate wrong...huhu
el marmariyah we kammoon di, ma araftusy eih...(the marmariyah and kammoon, i dunno what it is)
walakin na3na3 is mint leaves...:)

*dr's hesham's party was marvelous!

cower behind his effort

as i stood up from the floor in dr hesham's final revision lecture this morning (the lecture hall was almost packed), farhana patted me and said

"May Allah bless dr hesham!...seriously!"...i smiled and added "Yup! he deserves better than bless!"

Dr Hesham with Rana not me...just after his lecture this morning...:D

(thanx for allowing me to post your picture Rana!)

since early november if am not mistaken, Dr Hesham has been giving us (5th year Qasr el Ainy students) revision pediatrics lecture ...every teusday and thursday at 6.45 a.m. in the morning...yup, that early!...as that was the only time either one of us was free...honestly speaking, i only ever get to beat dr hesham once or twice before his lecture...he was always on time...and towards the second semester, we added another 2 hours in wednesday from 2-4 p.m....

and there was once dr hesham did a straight 4 hr revision for slides just before our peadiatric end round exam, wow!...he was standing the whole 4 hours!

his efforts mesmerized me... it showed me that, being great doesn't come by chance, i cower behind the effort that he's shown...how he worked hard to come as early as 6.45 in the morning and sometimes end his lecture from the groans of students who thought their brain were about to explode from the amount of informations he gave ( i mean to convey that even at his age, he didn't seem to know the meaning of tired compared to us 'syabab') ...no wonder he is a professor...and not only that he is concern in giving us knowledge, dr hesham also taught us about being a good doctor...

his lecture today ended with slides about:-

Qualities of a good Doctor

sense of responsibility

compassion and empathy

professionalism

fount of knowledge

humility

clinical acumen and judgement

communication skills

a good doctor is more than academic excellence, it involves right attitude, aptitude, character, commitment, demeanor and heart of service

- Dr Mohamed Hesham Sayed

*May Allah bless you for your efforts and sincerity more than you deserve...thank you dr.!

* grateful to be given the chance in meeting such awesome people...it is very rare to find such professors willing to give out free lectures as early as dawn and hardworking friends who boost your spirit to search for knowledge...and i found them here in my school, Qasr el Ainy Faculty of Medicine.

her gentle clutch

remember in my last post i said it was a blissfully happy wednesday?

apart from making me interested to look up for bruce springsteen...dr hossam also said a couple of words about shoulder dystocia...when he asked us for the management, i was completely clueless...(hmm...x bace lagi la nie...i tot to myself)

that evening, i decided to drop by the delivery room...after observing two c-sect, i decided to call it a day...but as i just took a step out, a woman was wheeled into a normal vaginal delivery room...hurm...just one normal delivery wouldn't hurt...i havn't seen one yet today...so i stood by her...

it was only me, the dr conducting the delivery and a nurse with the patient...the dr smiled and gave me a thumbs up...hehe
we waited...i asked if i could feel the uterine contractions..."try and put your hand on her fundus!" he instructed me...and we waited...

the baby's head seems so reluctant to come out...the peadiatrician came by us, asking how's the patient's progression...
"ma ti'la'eesyh!...di halet IUFD" the obstetrician replied... (dun worry! this is an intrauterine fetal death case)

huh?...okay, that surprised me...i didn't expect that...this will certainly end sadly in whatever way...
but even sadder...the labor seemed to be obstructed...huhu, the dr conducting the delivery called for help...and dr hossam came in...i was pushed aside as many more drs, nurses and anesthetist came in...
"i think it's a shoulder dystocia!"...i heard one of the dr said...

shoulder dystocia (click)

and frankly, so sorry on behalf of the patient, but i felt so lucky to get the chance witnessing dr hossam did every step he explained in management of shoulder dystocia that morning (of course except symphisiotomy)...since the baby  had already passed away, they were concentrating more in shortening the duration of delivery for the sake of the mother...

when the baby was out, dr hossam rushed to a theater for another c-sect...and was followed by the crowd who came in to see before, one of the dr who was holding the patient's hand called me, "hold her hand please, i need to go"...so i was left standing beside the patient and the first obstetrician who's suturing her episiotomy...

when the suturing was done, i tried to remove my hand...but the patient strengthen her clutch...her attempt was so weak, i could've easily slip my hand away...but i couldn't bring my heart to do so...she looked so dehydrated and pale...to kill the tension and quietness, i tried making small talks to her...

how old are you?
20
20?...am 22... (and already she's gone through this kind of pain...i added to myself)
how was it?
it's good, u've done great! (i assumed she's asking about the episiotomy as she was half awake already towards the end of the suturing and screamed with every prickle of the needle)
did he put him in the incubator?

it struck me...i was clueless...i couldn't say a word, but i managed not to trickle my tears...
her gentle clutch held my hand till the staff came in to take her to her ward...

that day reminded me of my mom so much...despite all our busyness in studying, we should never forget to pray for the one who sacrificed her life to ensure we live in this hectic world...

miss you mama! and ayah too, u took the share when u let mama clutch your hands...hehe
*may Allah reserve a place for you...am so grateful to be blessed with splendid parents...:D

no wonder...am in the 20th century!

i love music...like candy for ears...halwa telinga...(betul ke?)...hehe
but some are just...emm, what can i say...that's why am living in the 20th century!...hehe
i wanted to jot down about how i ended up to "actually" listen to this-

brother under the bridge - bruce springsteen
*sorry, the vid can't be embedded

hehe, did u enjoy it?...wokay...wut happen was...
on that blissfully happy wednesday, dr hossam (not the head of department) described the obstetric slides to us...and in one of the slides, he asked us about the anatomy of pelvic part of the ureter...of course, i was simply miming back every single word he said...(gosh, how much i've forgotten!)...

and as the ureter reached the ischial spine and curves forward and medially to enter the posterosuperior angle of the urinary bladder, he asked aloud.."it passes above or below the uterine artery?"
"ermm...above?" (i was sitting infront so i guess he heard my almost inaudible utter...erk..)
"nope...below...water under the bridge!...ne..ne...ne...under the bridge" dr hossam hummed and continued.."under the bridge? bruce springsteen? owh, never mind~"

haha...among all those valuable teachings he taught us that day...this one stuck in my head so strong till i eventually googled up and youtubed the song (are there such verbs...haha...20th century vocabs)...which, am sorry to say...not my taste...huhu...too bad...

learning is extremely fun!...especially, when u get to see people's reaction to new informations...
when i asked fizah to listen to that song she was...ahaa...nodding her head with an almost fused eyebrows...haha...

under tension!!!

usually, i'll go through Egypt's unbelievable traffic absentmindedly...

but today, it just got on  my nerve...

and i got home and sleep myself to calmness...hmm... :)

i've talked about traffic last year once (ironically it was in april too)

feeling tense, it reminded me of a discussion i had with a group of friends and Dr Maha Mosaad just after her lecture about hypertension in pregnancy... how stress is somewhat essential for human being maturation...

a friend of mine (Noha...i've known 3 egyptians with this name already...hehe) was asking about the maturation of fetal lung in hypertensive mothers...

and Dr. Maha gave us a question...

you have three pregnant mothers, one is diabetic, one is normal and the other is hypertensive. which fetus will get lung maturation first?

*a diabetic mother will give enormous amount of blood more than usual and the baby usually ends up huge.

*a hypertensive mother will give less (the baby'll be growth restricted)

we answered; the normal mother...

"nope!...it's the hypertensive very limitedly supplied fetus that will maturate first"...everyone gave Dr Maha a quizzical look...

"bussi, (look)...if you look at the children in the streets, fighting for their survival...get very little to eat, very few attention from their parents and have to work for their family...they get matured faster right? they can survive without their parents...and seldom fell sick even though they eat contaminated foods, right? 

but if you look at those pampered by their family, getting everything they desire...they can't survive on their own...

just like this fetus of hypertensive mother, he gets very limited nutrients and oxygen...so he has to fight for his life!"

"even though he's still in her womb?" Noha asked back

"even though he's still in her womb! , but of course there are scientific explanation for this...when you are under stress, you body will secrete more corticosteroid (a hormone for stress) that helps you cope the stress. and what do we give to stimulate fetal lung maturation?"

"corticosteroid!"

"see!"

*the discussion went on to the different types of fetal growth restriction then...

it got me thinking, maybe i am in a process to maturate...hehe...but feeling tense is not a happy feeling...

and sleep really works! :D

each new understanding in medicine triggers my inner mind, i am so small compared to this huge wide universe...subhanallah!

*sorry for a lot of jargons...hehe, i've tried simplifying them as much as i could...and do correct me if am wrong!

happy birthday ayah!!!

morning!...
another story about a thing that's extremely close to my daddy's heart...

my mum...:D

ever heard of a fairytale love stories...the ending is always...

"and they lived happily ever after~"

i dunno if i am actually in one...hehe, but my mom and dad surely love each other forever...
my dad told us how he first time met my mom one day after sahur...(which i pretty much think wasn't true...haha)


"i was walking down the street one day, and at the opposite site of the road i saw this exceptionally very beautiful girl...and i quickly bend my head down and said "subhanallah!""...

waa...honestly, we couldn't stop laughing that dawn!...(am sorry ayah if it was actually true...)
LOL...i could never forget my daddy's word...haha

and i know there couldn't be a better gift than having mama around with you...
maybe that's why you get ill on your birthday...so you get to take mc n be at home with mama...hihi

get well soon...don't let the temperature rise too high k!...and,
happy birthday ayah!
love and miss you always~

"may Allah bless you and mama forever and reserve a place for both of you in Jannah for all the great and wonderful things you have done...amin!"