jealous

i've been lookin up for the meaning of this word...
JEALOUS...yup!

but it doesn't really fit...
the feeling of wanting something for oneself only or the feeling of don't wanna share...
coz what dictionary.com explained means more like rivalry...

it reminds me of a surah i discussed with my landlord just before i started my final exams...

surah at-Tahrim...

generally, from what i understood...in the first 5 verses described and incident that happened among our beloved Prophet's wives...they were jealous of each other. so, Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon Him), to console one, he promised that he wouldn't visit the other one...(the tafsir is long...and the story is interesting, but i didn't remember all...)

and so Allah sent down surah at Tahrim, asking His messenger:

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

1. O Prophet! Why do you forbid (for yourself) that which Allah has allowed to you, seeking to please your wives? And Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

and Allah released Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) from his oath...

2. Allah has already ordained for you (O men) the absolution from your oaths. And Allah is your Maula (Lord, or Master, or Protector) and He is the All-Knower, the All-Wise.

then Allah described part of the incident and how He revealed it to His messenger...

3. And (remember) when the Prophet (peace be upon him) disclosed a matter in confidence to one of his wives (Hafsah), then she told it (to another i.e 'Aishah). And Allah made it known to him; he informed part thereof and left a part. Then when he told her (Hafsah) thereof, she said: "Who told you this?" He said: "The All-Knower, the All-Aware (Allah) has told me."

the next two verse, Allah warns Hafsah and 'Aishah...and the others too...

4. If you two (wives of the Prophet -peace be upon him-: 'Aishah and Hafsah -radiAllahu 'anhuma) turn in repentance to Allah, (it will be better for you), your hearts are indeed so inclined (to oppose what the Prophet -peace be upon him- likes); but if you help one another against him (Muhammad -peace be upon him-), then verily, Allah is his Maula ( Lord or Master or Protector) and Jibril and the righteous among the believers; and furthermore, the angels are his helpers.

5. It may be if he divorced you (all) that his Lord will give him instead of you, wives better than you - Muslims (who submits to allah), believers, obedient (to Allah), turning to Allah in repentance, worshipping Allah sincerely, given to fasting or emigrants (for Allah's sake), previously married and virgins.

in the sixth verse, everyone is reminded to protect ourselves and our family from hell fire, then we are told about repentance and this surah ends nicely with 4 examples of wives...two of which who disobeyed Allah, wives of Nabi Nuh and Nabi Lut and the another two wives of the  believers...Asiah (wife of the pharaoh) and Maryam son of Imran...

i apologize in advance if there are any mistakes in conveying the meaning of surah at Tahrim...do correct me if am wrong...:)

from here, i learnt that...even our beloved Prophet went through the turmoils of life...it will never escape anybody...
but still...jealous is not the real word to describe this yearning to possess for oneself...but it's the closest one or the most commonly used i may say...hmmm

dun  like feeling it..=.=

anyway...in the month of Shaaban, lets submerge ourselves with histories of our Prophet...and may it be our daily habits...:)
Allahumma ballighna Ramadhan...can't wait!