September 23, 2010

pantun syawal

i want to share a 'pantun' sms to me from a very special person...thnx for texting it!

sungguhku diuji empat perkara,
iblis, dunia, nafsu dan syahwat.
selalu menjeratku dalam binasa,
sedarlah aku sebelum terlewat.


though at first, it seems like "how is it related to eid?"
but when you read between the lines...it is a reminder, that even though syawal has come...and all those forbidden things in ramadhan has been lifted...you should be aware that starting first syawal...all those "four" stuffs are eager to pull you down-

a portion from our beloved prophet in his last sermon (khutbah al wida')
"beware of satan for the safety of your religion. he has lost all hope of that he will be able to lead you astray in big things, so beware of following him in small things."

*mid syawal...and the moon is getting more prettier every night



*The pantun is a Malay poetic form,In its most basic form the pantun consists of a quatrain which employs an abab rhyme scheme. A pantun is traditionally recited according to a fixed rhythm and as a rule of thumb, in order not to deviate from the rhythm, every line should contain between eight and 12 syllables. "The pantun is a four-lined verse consisting of alternating, roughly rhyming lines. The first and second lines sometimes appear completely disconnected in meaning from the third and fourth, but there is almost invariably a link of some sort. Whether it be a mere association of ideas, or of feeling, expressed through assonance or through the faintest nuance of a thought, it is nearly always traceable"

September 22, 2010

it's the fifth time

my fifth year here...(egypt)
i thought i could muster myself to feel normal here...(well...it should be! am entering my fifth yr~)
though at first it seems yes (masa dlm flight)
but the minute i took a trolley for my luggage, the feelings dawn on me all over again...~why am i willing myself to be here~...

hopefully it won't last too long...

i usually say it's fun in egypt!...but it takes a while to adjust...

and it will be fun all over again...like those four year that has past...

it's gonna be fun!...it has to!

September 08, 2010

let's forgive...pleaseeee

didapur ketika berbuka -
"macamane nabi tu sabar je ea kaklong?...", my youngest brother, ahmad questioned that...
"nabi tu, org buat jahat kat dy pon dy doakan kebaikan org tu", azfar added
"erk..."...me

there was this one day, i was so furious...urghh!!!
why do people have to be like dat???
i felt like avenging, so that the person knows what it feels like!
fortunately, my mind worked faster that time, after 21 years alive and with all my experiences (especially last year's)...it got me thinkin...


what made me so mad?
usually when things didn't go my way

is it appropriate for me to avenge the person back?
hurmmm....
i usually complain about it in my prayers...hoping God will give me patience to face that person,
and when it comes to the part asking God to avenge the person for me...i was reminded of our beloved Prophet (pbuh) how He would forgive anyone however hard they've done to Him...

do i have the right to get so mad?
was dat person so mean to me?...'so mean'...urm...not really,
compared to what our Prophet faced...this is minor!

and imagine if each time things didn't go the way Allah wants it to be and He gets mad over it...would i still be alive today?...Allah has let me lived for 21 years already, let me live this long so that i have the chance to redeem myself before 'that' day...

here i thought, i don't have the right to judge, however mad that person made me, i wasn't in his shoes...i could never understand why he did it...and i don't have the right to be mad at him, instead...i should correct him...not avenge him...

my inner mind speaking...hee...what i really mean to convey here is-


maafkanlah jika ada terlanjur perkataan
(or perbuatan or anything)
diharap supaya jangan disimpan
kuberdoa selamat panjang umur murah rezki
semoga tuhan akan memberkati

let's forgive and if possible, forget!...pleaseeee

and so...only a few days left before Ramadhan finishes...we must strive as much as we can to gain these few days...it's never too late as long as we are not yet in the end...

i really hope to get to meet next Ramadhan...

and of course, have a pleasant eid
so here i like to wish everyone
selamat hari raya!
kullu sanah wa antum toyyibeen!
maaf zahir batin!

September 04, 2010

the cookie story

LOL

i can't help but laugh first...so damn funny!!!
yesterday i helped my mom making this:


and then ona and aina came for 'buka puasa'...
we ate, chat...talked...and aina asked me for one of those cookies...she took one and went to the living room with amat...

aina

then, she came for another one...
ona became curious, where has she thrown the paper cup...
we all assumed she'd chucked it out somewhere in the living room..."dun worry la ona!" i said
the third time she came into the kitchen, mouth so full...pointing at the jar of cookies ("dy suke biskut ni!" - my mum)...ona asked her,

"aina, sini kejap! mane plastic dy?...packet hitam ni...aina letak mane?" pointing at her paper cup...
aina smiled...opened her mouth and pointed in it...LOL
"astaghfirullahal azim!!! kaklong la ni!...x ajar dy nk makan macamane!dy x penah makan mende dlm paper cup lagi, mane dy tau..." ona pulled out the munched up paper cup from her mouth...what happened to the first paper cup?
sadaqallah...safe in her belly...

hehe...

for the third cookie, i threw away the paper cup first...LOL...

September 02, 2010

it never occurred to me to miss it

i just finished helping my mom out in the kitchen...doing a bit this and a bit that...hehe

then i sat down in the living room, skimming through channels...and found this very interesting documentation
"Science and Islam"...in history channel, with an "18" warning...this caught my attention...so i click on it and found out how much i miss my study place...huhu...

enjoy~



*i need to really understand arabic to gain these...
may Ramadhan be blissful for all of you!

besnye org yg spend ramadhan in egypt...

September 01, 2010

feeling free?

the patient kept staring...
i doubt he can move his eyes...he's completely paralyzed, with myoclonic flexion of his trunk every five seconds...

i smiled at him...
miraculously, the edge of his mouth pulled up a bit...
is he looking at me?


i moved a step in front keeping my gaze on his eyes...his eyes followed...:D

"dr, what happen to him?"...i became curious
"i am not a dr,  i am an occupational therapist"
"owh sorry, mrs...what happen to this boy?"
"hurm...see his right elbow here?" i looked up his right elbow which is wrapped in a cast
"yup!"
"he was unlucky, caught up in a tiny accident which end up with a broken olecranon...he was chased into the orthopedic department who decided to operate on his olecranon...another unlucky strike in the OT, his heart fell into asystole...the dr tried to resuscitate him...and he was merely alive...but his brain damaged due to the blood deprive...so he is now being treated and hospitalized..."
"OoOOoooo...so sad~"

everyone just celebrated independence day, i hope he'd be free soon...

#be grateful that you are given the chance to experience ramadhan...why is it passing by so fast?
(a reminder to my-forgetful-self)