August 23, 2011

with grandma...

last saturday, my grandma, my mom and dad and i went to seksyen 7 to accompany my grandma to the dentist..
for her final stage of dental implant...

as my grandma was called in, my mom n dad followed suite...huh?...nk ikot jugak la! (i followed in as well):p

after my grandma lie comfortably on the dental chair, Dr Firdaus took out her x ray and praised how excellent the implant is!
(but i can only see two rod sticking in the incisor part of the mandible)...hmm?

then, Dr Firdaus said he'd put in some anesthetics, we'd need to wait for another half an hour or so, and he will call us back in to put in my grandma's teeth...i looked at the set of lower dentures sat on his surgical tray...
urm, why would he need anesthesia to put in that dentures? i questioned...

it was like this image except there were only two implants on the lower central incisor's part

so, slowly...i went to my dad's side and asked him..."ntah!, kklg tanye la dr!" (i dunno, why don't u ask the dr!)...urmm...shy as usual (haha), i kept quiet...so, as dr firdaus finished anesthetizing my grandma and we were about to go out of his examination room, my dad asked him
"ni...my daughter tanye why do u need to anesthetize her grandma"
"owh, to make like a clip for her denture to her implants...tak pe, nnt i show u how i do it!" dr firdaus replied with a smile...i returned his smile...and we've broken the ice!

so, for the second time in dr firdaus's room...i asked here and there as he worked on my grandma...felt like in an operating theater with a very helpful teaching dr...
"okay, we use a 12-blade to expose the implant"...he started..."and cut out the mucosa covering the implant i've drilled in 3 months ago"...
"we use titanium for the implant as it integrates excellently with the bone! see, no signs of inflammation at all" he said pointing at the xray and my grandma's lower jaw..."u see, Subhanallah!!!...among all the stuff our body rejects and make and inflammation around, on titanium, it doesn't...not only our body does not reject it...the bone even integrates with titanium..any other metal...even calcium...if we put calcium rod in our body our body defense will reject it or even another human bone!...but not titanium!"

"why?"...

"not sure, it was found accidentally!"

"who found it?"

"an orthopedic surgeon actually...Dr Branemark, he was doing his master research about blood flow in bone, so, he used a rabbit's femur and borrowed his professor's microscope...he put the microscope in the bone and observed...his master research was a success...and his professor asked for his microscope back...and that is when he realized, not only the microscope was stuck...the rabbit's bone even integrates with it...and that microscope was made of... Titanium!"

"accidental discovery!" my mum said

"yup, most discoveries were realized accidentally...they happen everyday in front of us, it really depends on us, whether we are a good observer or not...see, Branemark there could ignore the fact that his professor's microscope was stuck and just chip off the rabbit's bone...but instead, he saw this as a new finding...and investigated it!

"wow!"...loading these infos...hehe

i learned a lot from Dr Firdaus dat day...and seriously i felt like am back in Cairo for a moment there...hehe

there were many other topics we discussed about in that hour and a half procedure...and dun worry, Dr Firdaus has the best interest in his patient, my grandma was comfortable as ever during our whole discussion...
after discussing titanium's structure and how to wait for it to blend in with the jaw first before clipping on the dentures...we talked about acrylic resin... it caught my eye, cause acrylic exert exothermic heat...Dr. Firdaus even let me test it...hee..:D

well, this is too long already i guess,
thinkin of taking dentistry?...hehe, they say we can get rich easily being a dentist...
but medicine has always been my passion...hmm...

well, from his talk...what i get is, be observant!...the truth might just be starring in our face this whole while...and we might be the next huge discoverer!!!

slamat mengejar malam lailatul qadar!!!...:)
owh, pray for me and my family too k!

August 12, 2011

لمّا...

a few days ago, someone cancelled their class with ustaz mahmoud or came late...i dunno which
which i end up having ustaz mahmoud as my teacher (am studying with ustazah jihad now)...
and of course, his classes always triggers something in my cerebral cortex...
that day, a fair few significant stuff caught my eyes...but today i wanna share about "لمّا"

لمّا... is one of the أدوات الجزم
أدوات الجزم are "characters" or words when put in front of a present tense or an ordering verb will cause that verb to either have  this sign "a ْ " (the one above letter 'a') on it's last letter or loose حرف العلة if it ends with either ا-و-ي or loose ن if the verbs are one of the افعال الخمسة

that was briefly...for further info
أدوات الجزم : http://ar.wikipedia.org/wiki/فعل_مضارع#.D8.A7.D9.84.D8.AC.D8.B2.D9.85
افعال الخمسة : http://ar.wikipedia.org/wiki/أفعال_خمسة

what caught my eyes was...the meaning of  لمّا
ustaz mahmoud recapitulated to me the meanings of لمّا one by one:
1. it تجزم the present tense verb
2. when it is added, it negates the verb
3. it changes the meaning of that present tense verb and make the verb means past
4. and also means that the negative verb is still happening till present (to the time frame of the speaker)
5. plus, the verb has a potential to be done in the future...

ustaz mahmoud said that...we use "لمّا" when we wanna express that it is weird that this verb has not occurred and still not being done...
for example:

كبر الغلام ولمّا يتعلم
the child grew but still not learning

it's weird for a person to grow up but not learn a thing...and of course, in the future this child might be learning something...

and so...in surah  'Abasa verse 23...


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

كَلَّا لَمَّا يَقْضِ مَآ أمَرَهُ 


which means:

23. Nay, but (man) has not done what He commanded him.

literally, we can understand the translation: human haven't done what Allah has told him
but deeply, when we apprehend the words by how it is used and expressed...the meanings becomes deeper...

now from this verse...after i understood what لمّا means...i see it like this
don't be like this!...humans haven't done and are still not doing what Allah has told them to do! and this shouldn't be happening...but, there is a potential that they will do what Allah has told them to do...

and by understanding this verse as i wrote above, the next verse' meaning seems continuous.

how beautiful it is to get it...and لمّا is simply just a character...not even considered a word in arabic...

now i see why Allah merit each letter in the Quran when we pronounce it...

i still have much to learn...and sadly am progressing too slow for the time i have left...
so do correct me if am wrong...

let's read the Quran as much as we can during this wholly month as -

الفرض فيه بسبعين فرض و السنّة بفرض
each obligatory practice is rewarded 70 times and each sunnah practice will be rewarded as obligatory ones
(ustazah jihad told me this)

selamat beramal di bulan Ramadhan...:D
*reminding myself mostly and anyone who's reading...

August 02, 2011

precious

"my precious"...it reminds me of Gollum from LOTR
(if u have the time...do click the link above and watch Gollum/Smeagol's internal affairs...until he succeeded...it reminds me that in Ramadhan...all the devils are tied up...so the one we are actually fighting with is...OURSELVES!)

before last two days...when i felt "relatively neutral"...
i know, Ramadhan is coming...and everybody is making it "The Matter" to be talk and think and hope about...
i get the intention...and i also thought i myself yearned for Ramadhan to come...
watching you tube, reading articles...praying "Allahumma Ballighna Ramadhan"...
or so i thought i've felt it...

but, just hours away before we welcome this Holy Month...
while i was in my Quran class with ustazah Maha...she got a phone call, that told her...
a junior in 2nd year passed away...Innalillahi wainna ilaihi roji'uun...

Ustazah Maha was so affected as she had taught that junior once...
every few ayat i stopped at, she'll mouth out these words...

"owh, her mom...she just flew back to malaysia"
"owh, her dad...what would he say to her mom..."
"in just 4 hours it'll be maghrib, and she missed it..."

and then, in my arabic class...ustazah jihad poured out her heart

"liyana, you know, now that i think of Khadijah (her daughter)...only 1 year and three months...everyday i see her wake up, starting to walk, eat, laugh, cry...i can't imagine how i'd be if she was taken away from me...and a mother that saw her child grew up to the 20ies...owh...her family and friends must be very devastated!"

"you know how meaningful is the du'a 'Allahumma Ballighna Ramadhan' that Rasulullah s.a.w. taught us?...it's not just some prayer you chant out after the solah absentmindedly...we really can't know for sure if we get to be in another Ramadhan..."

and after performing Maghrib prayer with her, she shook my hand and said
"Congratulation ya liyana! our first maghrib in Ramadhan!" beaming radiantly...and added..."Don't forget to pray for Faten Fasehah"...

and that night...after solat terawih...i stood watching her coffin pass by...
there...i took in...how lucky i am to feel and get to perform in another Precious Ramadhan...
owh, how i thought i've felt that...

It's Precious!
*talking to myself...reminding me...
Al-Fatihah to Faten Fasehah...and may Allah strengthen her family and friends~