understanding

today was very ironic...

i sat at the far most seat in the back line to the right of the crowded overspilled tutorial 'room'
excited!!! cause i know surgery will discuss anatomy...but,
never imagine i would be reminded strongly of 'ayah'

every time i complained it's difficult to memorize, ayah will say..."you have to understand first!...once u've understood, u'll never forget"


frankly speaking, i could never see this applicable before.
i used to reply..."yana dah faham...but i forgot the explanation...so i forget..."


and ayah will say..."that means you still haven't understood it yet!"


urghhh...(it feels frustrating...like some one doesn't get what i mean...hehe)

but today i see what "understanding" means...(thanx to prof moataz for his 'smile'...hehe)

simple questions like, "what is vein?"..."what is negative intrathoracic pressure?"...hehe
can never be "understood" by just reading the anatomy book once...
it needs effort by the neuronal connections of your brain to function tremendously...or so that is what i feel like...

damn...i really thought i 'know' anatomy *not by heart of course*...

which i understand why now...

and right now, i need to reread...hmmphh...hehe 

thank God for opening my eyes...
owh i miss my daddy...