understanding

today was very ironic...

i sat at the far most seat in the back line to the right of the crowded overspilled tutorial 'room'
excited!!! cause i know surgery will discuss anatomy...but,
never imagine i would be reminded strongly of 'ayah'

every time i complained it's difficult to memorize, ayah will say..."you have to understand first!...once u've understood, u'll never forget"


frankly speaking, i could never see this applicable before.
i used to reply..."yana dah faham...but i forgot the explanation...so i forget..."


and ayah will say..."that means you still haven't understood it yet!"


urghhh...(it feels frustrating...like some one doesn't get what i mean...hehe)

but today i see what "understanding" means...(thanx to prof moataz for his 'smile'...hehe)

simple questions like, "what is vein?"..."what is negative intrathoracic pressure?"...hehe
can never be "understood" by just reading the anatomy book once...
it needs effort by the neuronal connections of your brain to function tremendously...or so that is what i feel like...

damn...i really thought i 'know' anatomy *not by heart of course*...

which i understand why now...

and right now, i need to reread...hmmphh...hehe 

thank God for opening my eyes...
owh i miss my daddy...

wind

today is friday!

the wind~

after understanding this...any breeze caressing my face is extremely significant now!

"shakautu ila Waki` su’a hifdhi

wa arshada-ni an tark al-ma`asi

wa akhbara-ni bi anna ilman nur

wa nur Allah la yu`ta al-`as"

"The great Imam ash-Shafi’, he went to his teacher Waki`

Complaining about the weakness of his memory.

He told him, ‘abandon rebellion, for knowledge is a light

And the light of Allah is not bestowed upon a rebel.’"

*Talib alHabib - knowledge is the light

i'd like to invite all muslims to intentionally understand Quran...not just the translation superficially...but also it's meaning deeply...
a "mukjizat" that we can feel it for ourselves...

knowledge is the light...

not something easily obtained...so, be willing to work for it!
*thnx mama sbb slalu bebel suh yana rajin...hehe (skang menyesal jd malas)...n thnx bg pegi jalan!!!:D

jom bace kahfi on this bright sunny friday...:D

new year...new round~

hmm...
a bit late to wish new year...but am still in the first month....(exam hiatus on writing...but not FBing...huhu)

first of all, a birthday wish for my youngest brother...turning 12...finally~
(time seems to past so slow for you)

Ahmad dokong Naufal...


i guess his wish for a splendid birthday present is another brother...siann tinggal sorg2 kat rumah...i'll come home if i can...honestly boy!...do cherish you primary school, coz secondary'll be way too different and not so cosy anymore...
*tp mama and ayah's gift seems really great! pleasant trip and don't forget an ole-ole for me k!

about the "another year.."
while reading "How to Examine a Child" in Lissauer, a description of child's thought process in that book triggered a memory of  some 16 years ago (GOD!...I am OLD!!!...hehe)

i was in kindergarten,
that day, the ustazah was telling us all a story about Judgement Day...how everybody will be judge for the good and bad deeds and will finally end up either in Paradise or Hell...well, honestly speaking...i don't really remember what she told us...but i remembered what happened next very clearly...

usually after class and playtime, i will follow an ustazah to her house (sorry i dun remember her name, but i do remember where her house was) and my dad will pick me up at her house in the evening.

that day, while waiting for the ustazah in front of her office, i noticed on her door wrote
"TAHUN 1995"

TAHUN means year...i knew that...i am 6 years old...i was born in year 1989...hurm...
year 1995...ok, we've learned numbers few days ago...after this would be 1996...then 1997...1998, 1999...and then...HUH!

WHAT IS AFTER 1999???

i panicked...there is no more 'year' after 1999...what will happen next?...i quickly told this devastating finding to the one immediately next to me (a friend) and she said..."ha aa la...ape lepas 1999???"
even she doesn't know what is after 1999...
"dah qiamat???" i questioned...ooo god...just another 5 years to live...

so scared..i kept this so quiet till i forgot all about the "huge" devastating info....

hehe...little that i knew before that there's the number 2000 after 1999...
and when i knew it how relieved i was...and now am in 2011...welcome new year~

time flew by faster than an ultrasonic jet...so far it went away and to a place very unreachable...

next round...SURGERY... will i have the guts???